I have a nail biting habit. I have been doing it since Grade 6 and haven't been able to stop.
This explains quite a lot of it.
I think I may have Dissociative Identity Disorder, because it usually feels like there's somebody else there in my head. I hear voices, sometimes having intelligent conversations with them by name. I have horrible mood swings and anger management issues. I'm incredibly sadistic. I love to traumatize people and I love pain, even when it's happening to me. A lot of my emotions feel fake, and I have most of the Aperger's symptoms. The only thing that stays constant is that I have dreadful focus problems and get distracted by the littlest things. Like ADHD. I also used to have depression; I still think about death and destruction a lot. I've never been to a therapist before.
for one i can hardly trust anybody. i have severe trust issues and i'm paranoid about every little thing. i'm anti-social and have tried to commit suicide several times. i love pain, especially when it's done to me, and i bite my nails and chew my hair. i don't like eating and i starve myself on purpose, mostly because i have a fear of becoming obese. i hallucinate and hear voices and cry for no reason. i've been diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia since fifth grade, and i have been clinically depressed for two years. i also have an anxiety disorder that possibly contributed to the schizophrenia. i love gory things and i obsess over the mere sight of blood. i'm also attracted to the paranormal and supernatural world.
First and foremost, I am a worrier, I fret over absolutely everything, but I keep myself occupied with minor worries so that the more serious ones don't make me become depressed. I'm uncomfortable speaking to people both online and offline, but whilst I may seem pleasant and shy on the outside, I have a short fuse temper over lots of things, trivial and serious. I'm extremely paranoid, I assume the worst in everyone, that they hate me, that think I'm an imbecile, or that they assume the worst in me also. I feel completely inferior to my older brother, who seems like a better person to me in every way.. I'm scared of speaking my mind, or being assertive in any way in case I come across as mean.
Things that are wrong with me:
- Anti-Social due to the influence of movies and TVs of character portrayals
- Paranoid due to the influence of movies and TV
- Bite/eat skin pieces of my lips
- Scratching my privates
- Too lazy to do really short objectives
- Constantly pace whenever I think/daydream
I have a huge fascination with morbid stuff, stalkers, sadists, etc. And I procrastinate.
I have almost exclusively eaten peanut butter and jelly sandwiches and ramen noodles all summer