I'm in a small school, and I (somehow) only have a class of 8. This makes what everyone does very, very obvious. Anyway, I believe you've read the topic title, so I won't restate what's there. I'm in a class of jocks. They are all jocks and super skilled at one thing particular: football. They are football fanatics. I'm OK at throwing, but I can't catch. I also trip. A lot. I very well can't talk about Pokemon, as they only know it as the anime (This predicament is what makes me f***ing hate the anime, but anyway). They are all also extremely extroverted. I'm, er, not. Whenever directed to in a rather big conversation group, I get flustered and freeze up. I'm fine when talking with just one other person or maybe two, however. I'm also all the teacher's damn pets because I'm so silent, and my younger brother who STILL doesn't know what goddamn puberty is humiliates me on a daily basis by insisting he hangs out with my class instead of his own freaking friends. I also really just don't like any of the girls at my school, either, so I frequently get picked on for that. I'm not teased to my face, most of the time, but I'm really self-conscious and incredibly paranoid. For the past 3 days or so I've had nightmares of being laughed at. I also beat myself up for being so sorry for myself and not doing anything about it, and then I beat myself up for being so harsh on myself. In other words, I get stressed... because I'm stressed.
Life isn't all bad, mind. I just hate school. I still have my family and you guys to turn to. This has been happening since November or so. I haven't resorted to anything drastic like self-harm, mind. I've talked to my parents and I've gotten the same response: Things will get better. Um, I'd like something done now so I'm not trapped for the next year and a half. I'm starting to go to a psychologist, so hopefully he'll help.
I apologize if I sound like a whiner and/or I'm overreacting; I'm just frustrated about this.