by, 1st January 2013 at 10:07 PM (917 Views)
Well, it's 2013 now. A time to look ahead to what the future holds, but also a time to look back and reflect upon the events of the past. I had to make a lot of decisions about a lot of things this past year, but I still feel like there are a lot of things in my life that are no clearer now than they were when they first came up.
There were good things that happened; I graduated college, have two B.A. degrees, and got to visit @Ryuutakeshi; not once, but twice. We got to spend Christmas together, go see both The Hobbit and Les Miserables, and I successfully wielded the power of baked goods to bribe his family into liking me. But there were also a lot of negatives. I finally came back to The War Room after the drama regarding October of 2011, but I didn't exactly find things the way I'd left them, and while I stuck it out through the initial backlash, now I feel like I can't say or do anything in there without every single person there getting extremely angry with me. My computer wouldn't connect to my home's internet for about four or five months. My fic, Heart of Crystal, went on hiatus during that time, and now I'm having problems coming back to it. I've barely gotten any other writing done. I got a job for a magazine that's just starting up and doesn't have all its legal kinks worked out yet and where my boss straight-up told me he didn't want to guarantee people a fixed minimum amount for their salary (and instead wanted to pay people an amount based on a percentage of the magazine's profits, no matter how high or low that amount would be), so I'll be quitting next week even though I've been working for him since August and received absolutely no compensation and won't get any before I'm gone. I'm starting to wonder if anyone here is actually going to read this, let alone if they would notice or care if I left the forums altogether.
I've done a lot of reflecting about my place in the way of things and whether or not I belong, and I still don't have much in the way of answers. But I haven't been going anywhere with anything anytime soon, and that's probably something that's going to continue for at least a little while longer. So for now, I hope you all had a merry holiday, a happy New Year, and a joyful Bak'tun. Welcome to 2013.
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