I'm getting out of here.
by, 7th June 2011 at 10:49 PM (1180 Views)
This staff recruitment drive has made me realize just how hooked I really am to this place. Sure my activity's been drastically decreasing and such, but I've been constantly thinking about this place, so much now that it's been intruding into my idle thoughts, where recently watched YouTube videos and an ear-worming song would normally reside. And I think it's unhealthy for me.
It's made me realize that even if I did somehow become a staff member, it wouldn't do me any good. It would be just one more thing to worry about during the summer, and I'd get mentally attached to this place even more.
When I applied for staffship, I wasn't even targeting toward the supposedly elevated privilege of such a position - it was more that I wanted to be an "insider" to the workings of the website and perhaps give suggestions on how to run the place a bit. But during this past week, I was horrified at how often my thoughts kept turning to the recruitment. It wasn't even that important a part of my life! Why was I so intent on seeing it through?
I have exams coming up, and even though I know I was here for last year's final exams, this year somehow feels different. Although I've already been admitted and there's essentially no way I can actually get my acceptance revoked (unless I deliberately trash my courses), I'd like to concentrate on some things that are not Bulbagarden-related - again, such as running Four Star Mon and actually getting some fanfic-writing done, as well as preparing for my first semester at university. And the only way I'm going to do that is if I take myself off here for at least a short while as a posting member, and perhaps even permanently as an active member.
That being said, this place isn't a bad place by any means. I made a few friends here, and even met a staff member here on another website that we now partner in running. I also stand by my statement that the fanfiction community here is still one of the best in the Pokémon fandom.
See some of you in life, some time. And perhaps even in Four Star Mon, if that ever gets popular.
Regards and best wishes,
Ztobor / Zekurom / Zodiac / Gi-gi-gi-giaru! / Dragonite Ernston / Zekürom / Zek*rom / Sazand*ra / Ƶekurom (Take your pick)
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