what did i just type

this blog entry will cover several topics so don't be surprised if I like switch subjects in the middle of something because yeah it's random like what the title says, gonna put it in a spoiler because it's really long and come to think of it I could separate this into several blog entries but who cares I'm lumping them all together

First why is it like when you walk across a room people stare at you like I'm just walking y r u staring at me it's making me uncomfortable like just walk normally I forgot how to walk normally what if I am walking normally I don't know asdfghjkl

when I get into something I basically turn into a walking advertisement

I'm not sure what kind of impression I'm giving you about the other hoot owls or Adam but really don't judge a fandom based on one fan lol like it's weird to think how I can change the way you think about Adam??? like I could tell you that once he threw his friend's dad's TV off of the roof of his friend's house while wearing a Santa Claus hat and beard and overalls (here's the video lol) and it's because of him I sometimes say whatevs because once in his OCTMS (ok I'll tell you what OCTMS stands for, it means Owl City The Midsummer Station there happy?) Twitter Q&A someone asked him I don't remember exactly but it was something along the lines of "do you like Victoria's Secret" and he said something along the lines of "their undies are a bit tight on me but whatevs" or that it's because of him I was able to survive my first year of high school without breaking down because he really motivated me and inspired me and I could tell you that he once said

Originally Posted by Adam Young

Evil always wins 'cause good guys are wimps

(he wasn't serious about that tho he was just joking it was a quote from one of his old home made videos with his friends and he played the bad guy there like whoa you'd never expect that)

Originally Posted by Adam Young

My favorite word is cube because it makes me want to go to the fridge and get an ice cube and put it in my mouth

Originally Posted by Adam Young

I dream of a better world where chickens can cross roads without having their ulterior motives questioned

Originally Posted by Adam Young

MY WASHING MACHINE EATS SOCKS

Originally Posted by Adam Young

Forgot my air guitar

just saying that there are different aspects of him and not to judge him based on how I portray him in my blog entries and stuff because he's a person you can't exactly put his whole being into words stuff like that I'm bad at explaining things, seriously tho never take his tweets seriously he's just joking about stuff and fooling around

Adam is amazing like listening to Owl City actually expands your vocabulary (and sadly not a lot of songs do that) You could learn new words like quip, promenade, rivulet, greenbelt and picturesque. I also learned (and this was mentioned in a previous entry) how to spell ridiculously, shenanigans, avalanche, silhouette and yacht. (the yacht is really sad because that's a pretty simple word but I used to misspell it as yatch lol lol so much)

so I don't know I feel weird because I pop into random threads and post a bit and pop into other random threads like I'm never permanently part of the conversation, I'm not like a regular contributor to a thread. I just randomly pop into places in the fun and games, outside the box, pokemon world and pokemon video games and occasionally entertainment inc. and I sometimes welcome newbies. I would be a regular in the writer's workshop but I'm not a very prolific writer, honestly. sometimes I just make up the story as I go along, sometimes I plan ahead but all the time I get stuck in the middle. the freaking middle part. I write the beginning, know how I want it to end but have no idea how to get there. like asdfghjkl. lol well you can give suggestions but they won't work. I'm telling you I suck P.S. who cares about capitalization or capslock 'cause I like shift key better oh yeah and I still haven't drank coffee (I have tasted coffee flavored ice cream and candy and stuff but have not drank legit coffee) aw yeah I used to want to to know how it tastes like but now I don't care when I go to Starbucks it's for the lollipops lol so much uuhh I told you this was random and yeah the format sucks so this is a bit hard to read? well ok new paragraph then

so... apparently Tumblr hates Bee Movie lol like that movie came out years ago and all of a sudden "hey guys you know Bee Movie sucks" uhh ok lol I'm glad I've seen it so I actually know what they're talking about and what's going on. lol for those of you who haven't seen it the movie is basically about a bee who found out that humans are "stealing" their honey so he sues the human race with the help of a florist (who's a human) and they end up falling in love and opening a flower shop together??? how

oh yeah and it hurts me inside to type like this, without proper capitalization and punctuation but I'm too lazy to correct myself and it's tEARING ME APART ASDFGHJKL I hate myself not joking once I looked in the mirror and punched myself as hard as I could not because I'm ugly which I'm not sure but beauty is in the eye of the beholder blah blah blah but really out of genuine hate and anger, that was over a year ago tho but I still have low self-esteem in case you didn't know

sometimes I question my sanity and sometimes Owl City lyrics basically sum up my life:

If we dissolve without a trace would the real world even care?

Talking only brings the toothaches on 'cause I say the stupidest things

Every voice in my head shouted yes and no every freight train of thought fought to stop and go

Soak your cares in solar flares and light up these island nights (this line to me basically means "I don't care" and I stopped caring a long time ago)

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UPDATE FROM WHEN I FIRST TYPED THIS BUT I WASN'T ABLE TO PUBLISH IT: my sister dragged me away from my laptop so yeah now I have other things to blog about and I probably won't be online tonight or tomorrow, let me elaborate.

She's two years younger than me but sometimes I wonder who the older sister really is because she sure acts like one. I know she's probably just like concerned about me or something but really she's taking it way too far and doing it like that is not the way to do it, she's forcing me. No one likes being forced to do stuff. Apparently I'm a "boring sadistic person" do u even know what sadistic means all I said was "I don't care, I stopped caring a long time ago" and you call me sadistic? Really? Uhh anyways as I was saying she's gonna hide my laptop tomorrow and make me do a scavenger hunt for it or something asdfghjkl

But do you really wanna know why I seem "anti-social"? It's not my fault, honestly, and it's not "teen angst" or whatever it's just that no one understands and they probably never will. I always feel alone, my constant companion will always be loneliness. No matter what. So I'd just rather feel lonely when I'm actually alone than when I'm around other people. In fact, sometimes other people make me feel even lonelier, more isolated, more secluded. The only time I don't feel alone is when I'm on Tumblr because they understand, they can relate to how I feel about social interactions and stuff.

lol wow this is a pretty long entry

anyways here's Vanillish Twilight's music recommendation of the day: Sky Sailing, if you love acoustic guitar you'll love this (and it's by the same guy from Owl City by the way), I suggest you try listening to the song Brielle (if you listen to it then my signature would make more sense to you)

oh and this is how I feel about the world sometimes, I got it from Youtube because I can't find the original on Adam's blog but it's from there

EDIT: I'll actually be able to be online tonight, still not sure about tomorrow but I doubt it, I just saw papers and envelopes and stuff on our bedroom floor my sister is already preparing clues for the scavenger hunt for my laptop when she hides it tomorrow and you know what who cares anymore I'll just let her do it because I stopped caring along time ago