what did i just type

warning: this might be a it controversial but I'm not sure oh and I bring up stuff about death in this entry, just a head's up

I'm bored and I have nothing better to do so who's up for another blog entry? lol I dunno what people expect from this, another rant? is my blog like well known for being stupid? well whatever so yeah you know my other entry "it isn't my fault" well there's something else I wanted to tell you about it but I left it out because I don't know it seemed a bit controversial? I'm not sure plus it involved a trampoline and you guys might be all like "oh wow you have a trampoline you must be rich" or something but for the record that thing is old. Probably older than me. Its springs are rusty and it's got a lot of holes in it, but it's still usable, I guess. Anyways, here's what happened:

my sister kept bugging me to get off my laptop and go outside and whatever, in the end I gave in, after biking we went to the trampoline. We jumped for a bit then my sister saw something. She was all "Awww look it's a dead chick, it must have fallen out of its nest, for a second there I thought it was a dead lizard or something." and I'm just like "By the tone of your voice a dead lizard is less important than a dead chick." and she's all "Just sayin' that I thought it was a dead lizard." but she wasn't denying it. It made me a bit angry inside because why would a dead lizard be less important than a dead chick? I forgot what I said to my sister next but it probably went something along the lines of "why would a dead chick be more important than a dead lizard, is it because it's 'cute'?" she just shrugged but she didn't deny it

It's sad really, the animals that get ignored just because they look "weird" and "ugly", if someone saw a dead kitten they'd be all "aww poor thing" but any other "not cute" animal they'd be "ew that's so gross" and really that makes me sad. Is a little equality too much to ask for? meh told you this was a bit controversial. I don't know.

side note: I'm listening to This Is The Future by Owl City right now and I don't know why but it's just so sad and depressing but inspiring at the same time. For some reason the message of the song to me is "whatever you do don't commit suicide and don't give up because there's still a hope for a better future" which is weird because I never planned on suicide. Like I don't know sometimes I think about it but I never seriously consider doing it because I know not to give up too easily, not to give up on my dreams. There's so much more I could do. There's so much to live for.

EDIT: I decided to put this in a spoiler because idk people might not want to see it because it's depressing?