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Ok guys it is almost time to get cut off from the world using a pocket knife my life has sucked i have been belted had two melt-downs have Bi-polar and have somebody else trapped inside me always making me feel like everything is my fault so yea Bye world nice knowing ya

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  1. Eleven's Avatar
    Why? Why would you end your own life when it will be painful for your friends and family to know that you made such a move, and they were never given the opportunity to help you...
  2. Niji's Avatar
    Don't kill yourself! If you don't enjoy living anymore, being dead isn't going to be any more pleasant. It may seem hard, but everyone, especially someone having to deal with being bipolar, has the strength inside them to not be defeated by misery. I had an aunt who committed suicide, and it's a horrible thing to do. I've even had many times when I've wanted to die before, and if I'd killed myself I would have missed out on a lot of great stuff that I never expected to happen. Luckily there are things like the band, Linkin Park and the comic Johnny the Homicidal Maniac, to get me through times of depression. Please, please talk to me if you're still intent on suicide. I need to have a fair chance to help you. I don't want the world to lose another great person.
  3. fabulis's Avatar
    From what I've seen in TCCA's posts, he has been hit this dad before, apparently leaving scars and bruises. I think he could be genuine in desiring to kill himself, if anyone can talk to him and convince him not to, do it. Perhaps contact the police for his area, wherever that may be.
  4. Niji's Avatar
    Quote Originally Posted by Fab
    From what I've seen in TCCA's posts, he has been hit this dad before, apparently leaving scars and bruises. I think he could be genuine in desiring to kill himself, if anyone can talk to him and convince him not to, do it. Perhaps contact the police for his area, wherever that may be.
    I don't know where he lives, only that it's outside of my timezone. I tried PMing him, though. I can't believe I slept in and missed him, I really hope he logs back on. Any ideas on what to do now? Do you think getting the attention of more people on the forum would help? Should we talk to one of the mods? I'm kind of shocked at how few people have even commented on this. I want to stop him, but I feel so helpless.

    The coolest cal alive, just know I think I understand at least some of what you're going through. I'll stand by your side if you want support, or a friend. Going through crap alone is a bad idea. Please talk!
  5. fabulis's Avatar
    I reported the post, sent this;

    The coolest cal alive is apparently wanting to kill himself, I'm reporting just so that any mods online can seem no possibly offer any help. I figure if the admins could look at his IP address and find where he is located, authorities could be called and perhaps help him.

    Maybe it'll help. Even if its only a cry for help, we might be able to get support for him.
  6. Ghetsis-Dennis's Avatar
    Seeing that he isn't responding, my guess is that he's already done it, which is a terrible thing.
  7. TheMissingno.'s Avatar
    Even though I might not know you very well Coolest Cat Alive, we on Bulbagarden are a family. Don't think that no one cares about you. No one wants to see you go.
    Updated 12th November 2012 at 04:27 PM by TheMissingno.
  8. Niji's Avatar
    Please. Log. On. Please. Log. On...
    I haven't gotten to know you much either. I just can't stand the thought of someone like you losing the fight to depression, though. I'm hoping with my entire soul that you're still alive. Assuming you are, remember you can PM me anytime if there's something bothering you or you feel like talking. I know from experience that life can seem pretty bad, but if you endure there are things in life that are completely worth living for, and I know you will find them.
  9. Orion's Avatar
    Oh you, and your refreshing optimism.

    Cal, buddy, I want you to stop and think this over. Send me a PM if you wanna talk, ok?
  10. an illegible mess.'s Avatar
    whoa ok stop what you are doing right now

    just breathe

    breathe, in and out, inhale exhale.

    now stop and cleanse your mind of whatever's bothering you. listen to some calming music, keep doing those breathing exercises, whatever you think may calm you down enough.

    what's this all about, if i can ask? i understand suicidal behavior, as i have felt it before and i've managed to get myself out of that hole. please, before you do anything stupid, i want you to look at all these people that just posted on your blog. these are people who care, including myself. please DO NOT waste your life like this when you know there are people out there that love you. killing yourself may solve your problem, yeah, but it won't solve anyone else's. it'll break people. just think about it.

    now, if this talk hasn't helped, i want you to please CALL THE SUICIDE HOTLINE!! it will save your life, trust me. it's national and toll-free. the number: 1-800-273-8255. if you don't feel like calling someone, go to the nearest emergency room immediately. people there will listen and help you. please don't leave us like this. you have a life to live.

    my inbox is open. feel free to pm me your story or whatever's on your mind. i will listen and i will help. i'm pretty sure it is the same way for many others on bmgf.
  11. Captain_Kaos's Avatar
    Thanks for all the support to not do it but this is not the first time i have tried to do it i cannot bring mysel to do it
  12. Ghetsis-Dennis's Avatar
    I'm glad you're still alive; we thought you actually did it. Do you have a psychologist, cal?
  13. John Understands's Avatar
    Well, at least you are active.
  14. Jaguar's Avatar
    Hey darlin'

    I know you’re going through a really tough time. I know I don’t understand how hard it is for you. But believe me when I tell you. Your life is worth living. You are handsome. You are smart. You are everything. You have everything that a lot of people wish they had. Stop thinking of everything bad in your life. Just stop. It’s pointless. I know you need to be in a really dark place to be thinking of ending your life, but you know, nothing is ever that bad that you must result to killing yourself. You make people smile, and imagine all the people who would cry having known they couldn't help you.

    I had a friend commit suicide in high school, and the worst bit was knowing that she was suffering while I was able to help her. I didn't know she was having such a tough time, and even though I asked her a few times about how she was doing, I wish I was able to pick up on those particular signs. It's the worst feeling knowing that I could have potentially done something to keep her here, to make sure that she was able to get the most out of life.

    She could have been a doctor, a lawyer. She could have followed her dreams/done what she wanted. You can do that, too.

    Now think. What do you have? What are your reasons to stay? Well I can name thousands of things.

    Your family, your best friend, your brother, your sister, your friends, your pets, running, feeling the breeze on a hot day, a beautiful house, a wonderful school, seeing the sun set, seeing the sun rise, watching the stars, bonfires, vacations, swimming, roller coasters, hot girls, acting retarded, laughing, not being able to breathe because you can’t stop laughing, eating, tubing, soccer, basketball, skiing, snowboarding, christmas, new years, your birthday, sleeping, shopping, heels, pokemon, movies in bed, breakfast, cooking, bikinis, feeling beautiful, just being happy. You know what? I could probably go on forever… but I won't.

    What would you miss out on? Seriously, think about this.

    Growing up, prom, getting a super hot tuxedo, finding the perfect girl, sex, your wedding day, your first born child, finally finishing school, miracles, bungee jumping, sky diving, hot air balloon ride, Europe, Asia, going on trips with friends, your sweet sixteen, your second born, watching you children grow up, growing old with the one you love, having grand children and watching them grow up, being happy. Oh what do I know? There could be so much more, for you. I'm only naming a few off the top of my head.

    And after reading all of that, you’d want to kill yourself? Do you think that they would be happy? Ever? Without you? Your family, despite what you may say about them would miss you. Your friends would miss you. The people at bulbagarden would miss you! No matter where you are, you will always have someone thinking about you, worrying about you. Hell, I'm even a bit worried about you.

    Before you use the pocket knife, just think to yourself, what I'm about to do cannot be erased. You can't do it then laugh about it a week later, you can't do it then regret it. You can't do that, and then take it back. What you're about to do is life-changing, and if you happen to not succeed in killing yourself you may end up in a vegetative state in which you cannot escape. The consequences and effects of attempting to kill yourself a far worse than the final result. You'd be suffering if you failed. You'd be lucky to live, yet this WILL scar you. Look, I’m promising you this. Life is a game you don’t want to miss out on. Just keep moving and you’ll feel the world around you. There will be better days. And you will succeed, whichever paths you take. Because I believe in you. And you have everything to live for.

    Anyway, hope you're doing well. Keep fighting :) xoxo
  15. Captain_Kaos's Avatar
    Thanks Cleffa
  16. Captain_Kaos's Avatar
    wow over 250 views


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