by, 17th February 2013 at 02:27 AM (185 Views)
So I'm in bed right now, on my phone. I was trying to go to sleep, but my parents were talking pretty loudly in the next room, and I heard my name, so I was listening to see what they were talking about.
Turns out they were discussing me and singing lessons. My dad had asked me to sing my lesson for tomorrow in front of him, and I had refused because it was late at night and I wanted to sleep. He became mad and was complaining to my mom, saying that there's no point in taking lessons if you never want to perform for anyone.
I would have been able to live with this (it's true, I don't like performing in front of people) but he took it way further. He said that I have no interests at all, and that I have never showed any interest in music. He argued with my mom, who defended me saying that I do listen to music, just not the kind of music he likes, and he didn't believe her.
*sigh* It kinda hurts. Music for me is everything. I actually got a keyboard for my second birthday. I could play "Twinkle, Twinkle", "Old McDonald", and other stuff on it. At [i]2 years old.[/i] By the time I was four, I could tune a piano by ear. From when I joined band at ten (and still now, actually) people seek me out to tune their instruments, because I can do it better than our band teacher. I can transpose music, too, and I've helped a lot of my friends at school with their private lessons. My friend (who plays alto sax) once told me that I was better at helping her than her own private teacher. I listen to music all the time. More music than my dad does, anyway. It might not be the kind of music my dad likes, but it's music.
Music is the one thing I've loved and also happened to have been really good at for my entire life. I...I thought my dad knew that. He's watched me grow up. Maybe it's my fault, though, for not talking with him enough.
I'm sorry, this is kind of a vent. I didn't mean to sound conceited or anything, I just wanted to organize my thoughts and such. Continue on with life. I'm going to bed now. ^^;