A Festival of Loss
by, 25th June 2012 at 07:33 PM (165 Views)
I feel like I have to share this. It's like losing the Game: you have to spread news of your loss.
This morning, in the school bus, I decided to listen to this compilation thing I downloaded, of all the theme songs. There was one problem, though.
I was afraid people would see the song I'm listening to. I was afraid. :(
I really wanted to listen to that song, though. It's what keeps me going. Eventually, I said FUCK IT, I'm not ashamed of being in this fandom. So I played the song.
Unfortunately, the boy beside me did see the song.
"What are you listening to? Pokemon? Aren't you a little old for that?" At this point I took a deep breath. I am not ashamed. I am not ashamed.
"Uh no, it's on shuffle. My 9-year-old sister put that in there." There. I failed. I'm sorry, I am a giant coward. Go beat me up.
I think the most important thing, though, is the losses and horrible truths revealed in this situation. First, that I was a worthless coward unable to stand up for the stuff I truly like. I am beating myself up, worry not. Second, the fact that most people seem to think liking Pokemon is a childish thing. I mean, they probably think all we do is go "SQUEEE PIKACHU! KAWAII! KAWAII DESU11!!!11!eleven" Third....oh need I say more than this? The boy was younger than me.
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