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A Festival of Loss

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by , 25th June 2012 at 07:33 PM (266 Views)
I feel like I have to share this. It's like losing the Game: you have to spread news of your loss.

This morning, in the school bus, I decided to listen to this compilation thing I downloaded, of all the theme songs. There was one problem, though.

I was afraid people would see the song I'm listening to. I was afraid. :(

I really wanted to listen to that song, though. It's what keeps me going. Eventually, I said FUCK IT, I'm not ashamed of being in this fandom. So I played the song.

Unfortunately, the boy beside me did see the song.

"What are you listening to? Pokemon? Aren't you a little old for that?" At this point I took a deep breath. I am not ashamed. I am not ashamed.

"Uh no, it's on shuffle. My 9-year-old sister put that in there." There. I failed. I'm sorry, I am a giant coward. Go beat me up.

I think the most important thing, though, is the losses and horrible truths revealed in this situation. First, that I was a worthless coward unable to stand up for the stuff I truly like. I am beating myself up, worry not. Second, the fact that most people seem to think liking Pokemon is a childish thing. I mean, they probably think all we do is go "SQUEEE PIKACHU! KAWAII! KAWAII DESU11!!!11!eleven" Third....oh need I say more than this? The boy was younger than me.


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  1. Karamazov's Avatar
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    Honestly, I can't really blame you. I used to do the same thing inyour situation.
  2. Dragonfyre's Avatar
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    Thank you for understanding. I still feel terrible , though.
  3. Karamazov's Avatar
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    One day you'll probably have the ability to take pride in your fandom and tell the truth. Don't worry about it too much.
  4. Ferbgor's Avatar
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    You made everyone lose the game just now! dammit!

    I know how you feel. I have a whole ton of Pokemon and Zelda music that I download and love to listen to, but when I'm in public, when they appear on shuffle, I always rush to change it to popular music before anyone sees.
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  5. Shiny Metagross's Avatar
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    Lousy peer pressure. Doesn't allow for anyone to be themselves.
    Dragonfyre likes this.
  6. HumanDawn's Avatar
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    What was the music?


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