Fox Tales in the Garden

First off. Thanks everyone who helped me through the Dragon Dog grief. I have made up with my Uncle and we're all just fine now. I haven't been given my modship back but that's fine. I`ll re-earn it when I`m ready to.

As for the Change in Power, well, one of my admins quit on me. Unexpectedly. See, up until a week or so before Halloween I was undergoing a sort of depression. I just couldn't get myself to do anything because 1. I didn't feel like it and 2. I didn't want to try and activate any plotstuffs without telling the rest of the team about it. So I had kinda been fighting with myself and insomnia to get stuff done. Then Halloween was drawing near and I had to get back into action, but I noticed my male admin was nowhere to be found. I figured he was just going on hiatus until he could recover.

So I went ahead and started prepping for events. A week passed by and still not a word from him, though I was checking and occasionally leaving messages, but I figured that I'd keep going so that when he got back he'd see a far-from-dead site. I was worried but I pushed it back to focus on the job. On Halloween I started the trick or treating event on VS and he popped in briefly, at which point I asked him what was wrong and if he was mad at me. Y'know what he said?

"Irritated, yes. But I really do not want to get into this right now."

I tried to pry and get him to spit it out, but he firmly snapped he did not want to get into it, so I left it at that and hoped he would tell me what was going on later. I continued on the event, and met with my other admin in private to see if she knew what was going on. Our only guess was that he was mad at me for being lazy and not being in VS to help him, so I sheepishly gave him the benefit of the doubt and kept working.

But my patience was running thin. The Trick or Treating event was over, and after a little disciplining of the members me, my sister, and my other admin were getting ready to start doing plotstuff. But he STILL wasn't in yet. He didn't talk to me on chatango, he didn't answer my text, I was getting pissed. I started telling my admins that if he was angry with me for not being there, he's not leaving himself much room to talk. He was screwing the pooch on the very thing I thought he was pissed at me about, and that was making me angry. I told them that if he doesn't show up soon, then by the time he did we were gonna have it out, and it would most likely end in his demotion from admin.

Well, the second part of that was right. At some point during the night last night, he logged into the site in secret and posted a thread basically saying he was leaving VS and whatnot, saying that he felt like when he was around no one wanted to do anything and when he wasn't around that was when we all got to work. He also said he had some awkward problems going on in his life but people he wants to tell already know. I guess being brosefs for almost 5 years doesn't fit the criteria, because I know nothing about this and the entire quitting thing came out of the blue. He's being passive-aggressive and avoiding everyone like a little bitch, and I thought he knew better than that, ESPECIALLY as an admin where that kind of shit NEVER flew. I guess I was wrong since he slinked around behind everyone's backs and doing whatever he damn well pleased because he felt like he was being taken advantage of.

I had great respect for him and loved him like a brother *even more than that when his birthday rolled by a few months ago, but we agreed to be bros instead* and this is the thanks I get? I irritate him and I`m not allowed to know why and he`ll turn his back on me when I`m not even looking?

This next part is overflowing with venom, this is your only warning.

And yes, I am angry. I am angry that after all we've been through, he doesn't give a fuck about me or the friendship we had at all, let alone enough to at least tell me WHY he's throwing all of this away. I dunno if he's subscribed to my blog or not *for he is a member of bulba, but for whatever reason I still give enough of a damn to not name him*, but if he is, I just wanna say I am incredibly hurt, angry, and disappointed in you. I`ve done everything for you, I`ve fought for you, I trusted you and you threw all of that away, and for what? Why did you do this? Why did you stab me in the back? I know I neglected VS, I will not deny that, but I at least came back and tried to get things going again! I had TWO events that you were apart of, one of which you never bothered responding to. Where were you during Halloween? I didn't see YOU help out during Trick or Treating! I didn't see YOU throw in your two cents when I went apeshit on everyone for chasing my sister out of her own contest! I keep tabs on ALL my friends and members and I KNOW you've been on. This is NOT okay. I thought you were better than this but I guess I was wrong. I thought you were my bro, and I guess I`m right in that since my real brother also turned his back on his family. I guess you are the best fucking brother in the whole fucking world. Good job.

Alright, now that I`m done venting, lemmie get to the next part that makes me happy. After I realized that he was leaving for good, I wasted no time in finding a replacement. I knew just the gal for the job too! I knew she was perfect because I carefully trained her and raised her for this role since the day I met her. I actually intended her to be a 5th admin when we got that big, but 4 is good enough lol. She's not her predecessor by any means, and given what just happened, I`m kinda glad about that XD. She's like a magikarp, for lack of a better analogy. She looks harmless and easy to take out, but when the going gets tough, the karp get evolvin. I have seen this girl be as shy and quiet as a whismer, and lash out with the ferocity of an angry Gyarados when backed into a corner. I am confident that she is now ready to take her place as an admin, where I think she belongs. i`m looking forward to seeing just what she's capable of ^^

That's the end of that entry for now. Imma go work on non-angsty things >.>