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Jack Pschitt — Tue, 16 Apr 2013 23:08:43 GMT

@Taliesyn; did it so I'm doing it.

Day 01: Your favorite song

"In Limbo" by Radiohead.

Day 02: Your least favorite song

Nicki Minaj's entire discography.

Day 03: A song that makes you happy

"Always Look on the Bright Side of Life" by Monty Python.

Day 04: A song that makes you sad

"Green Eyes" by Coldplay.

Day 05: A song that reminds you of someone

"Green Eyes" by Coldplay.

Day 06: A song that reminds of you of somewhere

"Brown-Eyed Girl" by Van Morisson.

Day 07: A song that reminds you of a certain event

"Revolution 909" by Daft Punk.

Day 08: A song that you know all the words to

"Paranoid Android" by Radiohead.

Day 09: A song that you can dance to

"Feral" by Radiohead.

Day 10: A song that makes you fall asleep

"Kid A" by Radiohead.

Day 11: A song from your favorite band

"Fitter Happier" by Radiohead.

Day 12: A song from a band you hate

"Living Lolita Blow Job" by Agoraphobic Nosebleed.

Day 13: A song that is a guilty pleasure

"Rolling in the Deep" by Adele.

Day 14: A song that no one would expect you to love

"I Ran" by A Flock of Seagulls.

Day 15: A song that describes you

"Creep" by Radiohead.

Day 16: A song that you used to love but now hate

"Let's Get Retarded" by Black Eyed Peas.

Day 17: A song that you hear often on the radio

"Burn it Down" by Linkin Park.

Day 18: A song that you wish you heard on the radio

"Revolution #9" by The Beatles.

Day 19: A song from your favorite album

"Optimistic" by Radiohead.

Day 20: A song that you listen to when you’re angry

"The Diplomat" by Pig Destroyer.

Day 21: Your favorite cover

Jimi Hendrix's cover of "All Along the Watchtower" by Bob Dylan.

Day 22: Your favorite music video

No idea.

Day 23: A song that you want to play at your wedding

A wedding? For this sack of shit?

Day 24: A song that you want to play at your funeral

"Motion Picture Soundtrack" by Radiohead.

Day 25: A song that makes you laugh

"Big-Ass Purse" by Reggie Watts.

Day 26: A song that you can play on an instrument

Muse's Exogenesis: Symphony.

Day 27: A song that you wish you could play

Muse's Exogenesis: Symphony.

Day 28: A song that makes you feel guilty

"The Scientist" by Coldplay.

Day 29: A song from your childhood

"Get it Together" by Seal.

Day 30: Your favorite song at this time last year

I don't think I had one.

Did I mention I like Radiohead?

I just read a bunch of people respecting themselves and now I'm gonna bitch about it

Jack Pschitt — Thu, 11 Apr 2013 20:43:08 GMT

Wah-wah-wah-wah.

I'm in a Downward Spiral

Jack Pschitt — Fri, 05 Apr 2013 20:50:34 GMT

I'm listening to The Downward Spiral by Nine Inch Nails. Get it? hahahah.

I can identify with this album. The lyrics really connect with me. The lyrics really speak to me when they talk about reptilian succubi and uncontrollable sexuality and these thoughts I have that I can't get rid of. This beat has a gun shot in it. Killing everyone, that's another thing the lyrics talk about. Really speaks to me.

I know I'm gonna regret making this blog in a few hours. So why am I making it? No idea. Don't really feel like thinking straight right now. I kinda like how helpless these people in the background sound. I wish I could have that kind of control.

Minecraft, Parte Deux

Jack Pschitt — Sun, 31 Mar 2013 22:18:03 GMT

Well, I just had to try Minecraft again after my extremely epic failure detailed in my last blog entry. Instead of being spawned in a jungle this time and left clambering along the vines, among the trees and atop the canopy, I spawned in a plain old forest on the banks of a plain old river. Already, I have farms for beef and wheat, a pet fox which I named Moxie, and a quarry (which I died finding and then took around two in-game weeks to find again :I).

You have no idea how happy I was a half hour ago when I finally, finally became able to make a bed. I have not seen a single sheep in this world, and I've only seen pigs and ducks in one neck of the woods for some reason. Literally everything else is cows as far as the eye can see, except for the area bordering the desert where I found Moxie and died twice trying to tame him. Faced with this lack of sheep, I killed spiders when I happened upon them and wasn't already running for my life, and eventually (after I think a month in-game xD) I amassed 12 pieces of spider string, which is enough to make three blocks of wool, which is enough to make a bed (I have wood coming out my ears). ~~So basically I sleep in the remains of my enemies.~~

Man, the stories I could tell you after only playing in this world for two days. Most of them would probably be uninteresting to the seasoned Minecraft player, but they sure impressed me when they happened. Like the time when I trusted a piece of zombie meat to keep me alive and it somehow proved extremely valuable, or the time when I was hauling ass to shake a Creeper off of my tail and fell into a ravine, or the time when I killed a freaking king skeleton in a freaking well and mounted his freaking helmet on my freaking imaginary mantle, HELL YEAH. (I felt really proud of myself after I did that.) I even have a special chest labeled "Things of sentimental value". So far all that's in it is the helmet of the king skeleton and the bow of a skeleton that I killed with my bare hands early on in my game while on the verge of death, but maybe it'll get more filled up someday.

A good part of this game is also luck, and I have quite a bit of that. I just so happen to live basically just around the bend from an NPC village (their numbers have dwindled and I want to reverse that, but I don't know how, so I just keep replacing their doors because I think that might do something, maybe?), and even closer by in the other direction is a waterfall that goes right off of the river I live on, into a freaking ravine that I swear I will go down one of these days. My quarry is pretty damned cool, too. I found it as a very large vein of cobble stone just sitting there amid the dirt and sand, and I could tell by its large size, unusual flatness, and traces of coal and iron that it was special. Mining's kinda the last of my worries right now, especially since this quarry has two caves in its vicinity filled with monsters and crap (what'd I tell ya, it is special), and instead I've been focusing on trying to create an infrastructure so I can die less often and stuff, but I've given the quarry a sign along the river so whenever I like I can ride it down and find it.

I use signs more than the average player, I think.

So anyway, this was a lot longer than I thought it would be, but there you go. Minecraft has me in its clutches, maybe for a while this time.

And I still have not done anything productive all week. The End.

Minecraft

Jack Pschitt — Sat, 30 Mar 2013 22:50:55 GMT

I've tried Minecraft several times over the years, but I just couldn't get the hang of it. It's a great game, just not for me.

So today, I thought I'd try it out again to see if it calmed me down after a few minutes of a little depressed episode.

It didn't help. BRB, racking my brain over how much of a fucking idiot I am. How do people even play this shit without dying every five seconds?

Jack Pschitt Farts Again

Jack Pschitt — Sat, 30 Mar 2013 19:31:51 GMT

I just had a bowl of chips with spaghetti sauce.

._.

omg swet 16

Jack Pschitt — Fri, 29 Mar 2013 00:33:20 GMT

So today I turned sixteen years old. As an early present over the week-end, my mom got me a puppy to be a little companion for me, whom I named Stucco, as I detailed in a blog the day I first got him. But today was the big day. I woke up to like eleventy billion notifications on this here site, and then I had the idea to go through the school day with as girly and fruity a balloon as possible. I managed to get a black-and-pink "Sweet 16" balloon complete with sparkles and tiara, and my mom got some sugar cookies to distribute to my friends, too.

So school was okay. I got more birthday wishes than I thought I would. I remembered to say thanks when I got one. I did a recital of Act 5, Scene 5 of Julius Caesar, completely went "screw it" and gave up on a test in Physical Education, and picked up where my Biology class left off yesterday and finished Gattaca, which is a damn good movie.

After school, I went home and crash-dove into a depressed slump (I'm really sorry for being such a depressed piece of shit today, @Taliesyn;), but then snapped out of it when my grandmother arrived and I started opening presents. Gramma got me David Bowie's new album, The Next Day, bringing my total of David Bowie albums randomly amassed over the past few months without me buying any of them to four, along with 100 dollars. My aunt/cousin got me two guitar stands (one for the family's acoustic guitar, and one for my electric guitar), a music stand, and an electric guitar tuner. My mom got me a super-special Wizard of Oz box set with out-takes and other goodies that I didn't know existed (which is cool), a vintage Fender velvet-lined box for all my various guitar-related doodads (which is super dorky cool), and an issue of the Tampa Herald-Tribune from July 1969, with the Apollo 11 mission to the Moon as the front-page story (which is holy cow SUPER MEGA DORKY COOL). My maternal grandparents got me sixty dollars.

But the coup de grace was what my mom's friend Jeff got me.

THAT

I GOT THAT BAD BOY

AND HOLY CRAP DOES IT SOUND COOL

IT'S HEAVY AS HELL, DUDE

IT, LIKE, SNARLS WHEN I PLAY IT

And then I went to record store and bought Mastodon's Blood Mountain and Atoms for Peace's Amok. So this birthday went from okay to crummy to AWESOME. I want to thank everyone here who gave my birthday wishes, too. I had no idea so many people cared that I'm sixteen now. :'3 I'm sorry I couldn't be more enthusiastic when I thanked all of you personally. That was during the "crummy" stage of today. But it's all good now, 'cause I'm now a hundredaire who owns really old stuff and a guitar that sounds like a wild boar.

My Mom Reacts to My Music

Jack Pschitt — Thu, 28 Mar 2013 02:29:37 GMT

Canadian avant-garde/post-rock band Godspeed You! Black Emperor, to be specific.

MOM: *walks in on me laying on the floor in my room, listening to "Strung Like Lights at Thee Printemps Erable", which is drone music instead of their usual post-rock by the way*

"What are you listening to?"

ME: "The last song on this album."

MOM: "And this is a song?"

THE SONG: "BWUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU"

ME: "Well, it's a closing song."

THE SONG: "UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU"

MOM: "I think I could play this song."

ME: "I think I could, too."

THE SONG: "UUUUUUUUUUUUUUyummmmmmm..."

MOM: "Oh, hey, it's over."

ME: "Actually, it's, like, six minutes long."

MOM: "Oh."

What a Day

Jack Pschitt — Sat, 23 Mar 2013 20:47:56 GMT

Over the past few months, my family had been expressing interest in getting a new dog, presumably so our nine-year-old German shepard mix could have a "buddy". The problem was that our dog is a guard dog, and I really didn't think adding a new dog into the household was a good idea. I thought I had made it clear that I didn't want another dog.

Well, with my 16th birthday coming up in less than a week, my family went ahead and got a new dog anyway. Apparently mom had been planning for this new puppy so I could have a companion when I go off to college. When mom opened up the van and I saw a little rat terrier/chihuaha mix sitting there, I simply had no words. The first thing I pictured was prying apart the two dogs and giving this little guy back to the shelter.

But apparently mom had also read up on how to introduce dogs to each other and it worked surprisingly well. As I type this from my iPhone in the yard, the little one is sitting in a fenced-off part of the big one's territory, and they're getting along well. They aren't fighting, anyway.

Really, I didn't want this, and I still would rather have not gotten another dog. I just feel like now I have to raise a juvenile mammal along with over-coming my depression and dealing with the stress that it causes in my life. This isn't helping my paranoid tendencies and all it's really doing right now is filling me with dread.

But I'm stuck with him, so I'll do this whole "raising a puppy" thing anyway. I named him Stucco, because he's colored like a piece of stucco and because I'm stucc with him now.

NO MATTER HOW MANY TIMES I SEE IT

Jack Pschitt — Wed, 13 Mar 2013 01:08:46 GMT

Literally, and I do mean literally, every single time I see the phrase "tear up" (meaning "to cry"), I always always ALWAYS think it's "tare" as in "tear to shreds" instead of "teer" as in "tear in the eye".

Literally every single time ever.

I Want to Start a Band Wagon

Jack Pschitt — Sat, 16 Feb 2013 18:06:21 GMT

I got bored.

Rules:
1. Go to allmusic.com.
2. Pick an artist and search for a review of any of their albums. This is your starring point.
3. Pick another artist. This is your target. The more radically different from the starting artist, the better.
4. Use only the links provided in the "Similar Albums" list below the review to advance from your starting artist to your target artist.
5. You cannot go back.

I'll demonstrate.

My starting artist was Katy Perry (electric pop, teen pop, etc.). My target artist was Sunn O))) (drone metal, dark ambient, etc.). Here's what happened.

1. Katy Perry's Teenage Dream
2. The Black Eyed Peas' The Beginning
3. LMFAO's Sorry for Party Rocking
4. DJ Shadow's The Outsider
5. Cypress Hill's Live at the Fillmore
6. Body Count's self-titled debut
7. Limp Bizkit's Gold Cobra
8. Deftones' White Pony
9. Down's Diary of a Mad Band: Europe in the Year of VI
10. Eyehategod's Take as Needed for Pain
11. Electric Wizard's Black Masses
12. Candlemass's Epicus Doomicus Metallicus
13. Electric Wizard's Dopethrone
14. Om's Variations on a Theme
15. Sunn O)))'s Altar

Looks like there are sixteen points of separation between teen pop and drone metal. :I

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Jack Pschitt — Sat, 16 Feb 2013 02:54:02 GMT

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I Shouldn't do This But I am Anyway

Jack Pschitt — Sat, 09 Feb 2013 13:28:53 GMT

1. Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?
I can't remember the last time someone told me that.

2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now?
No.

3. When’s the last time you were aggravated and happy at the same time?
Probably a few days ago, since I'm always mad at myself nowadays.

4. Would you ever smile at a stranger?
Not in the state I've been in lately.

5. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?
I don't know.

6. Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?
No. I will at some point, I'm sure. Everything reminds me of her.

7. What exactly are you wearing right now?
Black Batman T-shirt, blue jeans, and black hooded jacket. And boxers, if you want me to get specific.

8. How often do you listen to music?
Every waking moment.

9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more?
Jeans.

10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2014?
Probably. Nothing ever lasts in my life.

11. Are you a social or an antisocial person?
Antisocial, definitely.

12. Have you ever kissed someone whose name begins with the letter ‘A’?
I've never kissed anyone.

13. What about ‘R’?
N/A

14. Can you drive a stick shift?
No.

15. Do you care if people talk badly about you?
If it's the kids at school or something like that, then I couldn't give less of a shit.

16. Are you going out of town soon?
I go "out of town" every week because I have two houses.

17. When was the last time you cried?
Wednesday.

18. Have you ever told someone you loved them?
Yes.

19. If you could change your eye color, would you?
I don't really care.

20. Is there a boy who you would do absolutely everything for?
A girl, yes.

21. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having.
Myself.

22. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead?
N/A

23. Are you dating the last person you talked to?
I wish I were.

24. What are you sitting on right now?
My ass.

25. Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you?
One good friend of mine.

26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?
I do right now.

27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?
I don't know.

28. Do you get a lot of colds?
Not really.

29. Where is the shirt you are wearing from?
I don't remember. I want to say Target.

30. Does anyone hate you?
Probably.

31. Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden somewhere in your room?
No.

32. Do you like watching scary movies?
Creepy, bleak, and dark movies, yes, but not scary movies.

33. Do you want your tongue pierced?
No.

34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?
2012.

35. Did you have a dream last night?
Probably.

36. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?
Yesterday. She didn't say it back.

37. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?
No. I don't think I ever will.

38. Do you think someone has feelings for you?
No.

39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
My mom, maybe. She's been really concerned about me lately.

40. Did you have a good day yesterday?
No.

41. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship?
Yes.

42. In the next 48 hours, will you hang out with a girl?
Probably not.

43. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?
I can't remember. Probably. She did in the end, though. But she doesn't care, so it's all good.

44. What’s the best part about school?
Leaving.

45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook?
Very, very few. I plan to add a couple more soon.

46. Do you ever pass notes to your friends in school?
No. The only note I've ever received was from a guy saying that the girl next to him liked me. But he's an ass-wipe, he was just trying to mess with me.

47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head?
Yes.

48. Were you single over the last summer?
Yes.

49. Is your life anything like it was two years ago?
Not really.

50. What are you supposed to be doing right now?
Thinking happy thoughts.

51. Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?
No.

52. Are you nice to everyone?
No.

53. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?
I can't say I have, to be honest. :P

54. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?
Yes. I would have if she let me.

55. Are you good at hiding your feelings?
No.

56. Do you think you like someone?
Yes. I hate myself for it every day.

57. Have you kissed someone whose name starts with a ‘J’?
N/A

58. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys?
I get along with girls better.

59. Has anyone of your friends ever seen you cry?
I think so.

60. Do you hate anyone?
I guess. Nobody here, though.

61. How’s your heart?
Physically fine, metaphorically broken, scarred, and beaten to a pulp.

62. Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about?
Yes.

63. Have you ever cried over a guy?
Over a girl, yes.

64. Who is probably talking a load of crap about you right now?
I don't know.

65. Are your toenails painted pink?
Well, hey, I've laughed for once today.

66. Will your next kiss be a mistake?
Probably.

67. Girls love it when boyfriends cry; correct?
N/A

68. Have your pants ever fallen down in public?
No.

69. Who was the last person you were on the phone with?
My mom.

70. How do you look right now?
They way I usually do. A mixture of sad, bored, and angry.

71. Do you have someone you can be your complete self around?
Yes, but I shouldn't.

72. Can you commit to one person?
I was.

73. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
Yes, two, though one of them doesn't want to hear it.

74. Have you ever felt replaced?
I might be right now.

75. Did you wake up cranky?
If depressed counts as cranky, then yes.

76. Are you a jealous person?
Maybe.

77. Are relationships ever worth it?
For a few lucky people, yes.

78. Anyone you’re giving up on?
Not really. Like, kinda, but... I dunno. Next question.

79. Currently wanting to see anyone?
Yes.

80. Name something you have to do tomorrow?
Head back to my other house.

81. Last person you cried in front of?
I dunno.

82. Is there someone you will never forget?
Yes.

83. Do you think the person you have feelings for is protective of you?
No.

84. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now?
Trying to make sure I didn't do something stupid.

85. Are you over your past?
No.

86. Have you ever liked one of your best friends of the opposite sex?
I do right now.

87. Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to?
Yes.

88. If your first crush knocked on your door with an apology and presents, would you accept?
"Crushes" are dumb, childish things.

89. So, the last person you kissed just happens to arrive at your door at 3AM; do you let them in?
N/A

90. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?
No.

91. Will you be in a relationship in 2 months?
Never again.

92. Is there anyone you know with the name Michael?
No.

93. Have you ever kissed a Matthew?
N/A

94. Were you in a relationship in January? How was it going?
N/A

95. Were you happy with the person you liked in March?
I didn't like anybody last March.

96. Don’t tell me lies, is the last person you texted attractive?
She's alright. :I

97. Who do you have texts from?
My mom, some teachers, a friend of mine.

98. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?
Nothing. I don't want to know what I'd to to myself after.

99. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?
N/A

100. Has anybody ever given you butterflies?
Yes.

Counseling Went Well

Jack Pschitt — Wed, 06 Feb 2013 19:48:42 GMT

Today, I left school early to go to counseling and see if it might help me get over the fact that I'm a pathetic creep of a human being. It went well. I like her. My next appointment is a week from now.

People who might care:
@fabfab;
@Taliesyn;
@Sourcandy;
@Fennel;
@Meenah;

A Quick Letter to Myself

Jack Pschitt — Mon, 04 Feb 2013 22:36:22 GMT

Blaize,

As you write this, your depression has finally pierced the veil of your defensive mental wall after approximately five days of staying dormant, which is your personal best. You are feeling completely hopeless, horrible, and worthless in every way. You are a very musical person, and you have made this list in an attempt to try regaining a little bit of the happiness you used to have.

When you're feeling okay: Listen to whatever you want. You listen to all kinds of stuff, Philip Glass to Autechre and Bon Iver to Between the Buried and Me. You're bound to be in the mood for something. Don't listen to anything you're not in the mood for.

When you're feeling like you might go into a fit at any moment: Listen to distracting music. No simple songs, no realistic songs. Listen to stoner metal, progressive metal, classical music, psychedelic rock, electronica, and alternative rock. Artists to keep in mind are Baroness, Mastodon, Symphony X, Philip Glass, Jon Lord, Grizzly Bear, Tilbury, Radiohead, and Muse. Don't listen to simple or cathartic music. Avoid Bon Iver, Nirvana, Coldplay, Torche, Earth, Metric, The Beatles, and Styx. Also avoid music that reminds you of her. Avoid Metallica, Judas Priest, Iron Maiden, Black Sabbath, Blue Oyster Cult, Styx, Talking Heads, The Agonist, Megadeth, and The Misfits.

When you're feeling angry: Listen to blisteringly insane, bone-crushingly brutal, or snide music. Listen to sludge metal, stoner metal, doom metal, death metal, drone metal, and hip-hop. Artists to keep in mind are Mastodon, Baroness, Eyehategod, Sourvein, Floor, Cavity, Torche, Earth, High on Fire, Black Cobra, Gojira, Between the Buried and Me, Unearthly Trance, Sunn O))), Rage Against the Machine, One Day as a Lion, Gang Starr, Nirvana, and Acid Bath. Avoid pop, rock, metal that doesn't feel like it's resonating with the frequency of the entire planet, electronic music, and alternative rock.

When you're feeling hopeless and depressed: Listen to pretty or calming music. Listen to post-rock, alternative rock, glitch, electronica, folk rock, smooth jazz, and classical music. Artists of interest: Earth, Sigur Ros, Brian Eno, Radiohead, Coldplay, Grizzly Bear, Ametsub, Autechre, Daft Punk, Bon Iver, Fossil Collective, Boards of Canada, Miles Davis, Styx, and Tilbury. Avoid music that reminds you of her.

Hopefully this helps. You're not sure why you're writing this as a blog on BMGf instead of, say, in your note book, but then again, you do become a pathetic attention whore when you get depressed like this.