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Okay. I Found My Limit.

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by , 18th February 2013 at 03:35 AM (374 Views)
At around 12:15 CST, I found it very difficult to swallow anything but water. I didn't know what was going on. My dad did not react well to this and thought I had problems with consuming anything because of some kind of infection. He even criticized me and told me that I was frustrating. Well, does he really expect for me to literally chug a tiny amount of vinegar followed by a giant glass of water and not react badly to the taste of it? Sometimes I don't understand his thoughts... My throat felt like it was closing up and I felt very light-headed. Several minutes later, my mouth stopped producing saliva, and I felt the need to pace around my dad's apartment to help with my sudden change in breathing patterns. I could not feel my heart beating, and constantly had to check to see if I was going to survive. My symptoms worsened and I had to go to the hospital because I had no idea what was happening to me and was feeling more light-headed if I sat down. The car ride was terrifying. My mouth was almost totally dry, I couldn't think straight, and I was in constant fear of dying.

When I got out of the car, I immediately headed towards the hospital's entrance and waited impatiently to see what was wrong with me. The last thing I wanted was to do was sit still and get my blood pressure and pulse checked. I knew it would make me even more light-headed and I was already uncertain as to what would happen next. Would I survive? I wanted to tell my mom to let you guys know if I did end up dying, but a part of me said no. She wouldn't understand and probably wouldn't do it for me. I was told to take deep breaths by the doctor, and was lead into a small room with a soft bed. I was asked to lay down and continue trying to relax. It took a while, but I finally calmed down and breathed normally after having my anxiety attack. As it turns out, I was hyperventilating because of stress built up, which makes a lot of sense considering what has happened to me lately. The doctor told me that it came from a lot of negative emotions and getting stressed out over many things and worrying. I have never had such an attack like that before, and really, I don't want another one.

If it isn't obvious, my life as been a literal shitstorm lately. I hope this is the end and I can go back to my...you know, I have pretty much always been emotionally unstable, so there's only new Zima that can come out of this. XD

Thanks for reading. :D

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  1. Yato's Avatar
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    Get your favorite snack, snuggle under your bed covers and watch your favorite anime or play games. Catch a Cresselia so you can have good dreams at night. Relax, laugh, and allow yourself plenty of time to rest. I hope you get better soon!!
  2. Setra's Avatar
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    I hope you feel better!
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  3. Bill Cipher's Avatar
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    Oh no! I'm very glad you're okay Zima. ;w;
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    Updated 18th February 2013 at 11:15 AM by Bill Cipher
  4. SwampertShoes's Avatar
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    I am SO sorry that happened! R&R at times like those, definitely... Just let go. When I think I'm getting too resentful, I sit myself down, and just relax, for however long I need to. In the scope of life, we just have to keep going, you know? It's hard to learn that go-with-the-flow attitude, to throw away the negative, but once you do learn it, it's nice. =] Feel better, the world needs your and everyone's smiles!
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  5. Helioptile's Avatar
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    Quote Originally Posted by Dark Blueberry
    Get your favorite snack, snuggle under your bed covers and watch your favorite anime or play games. Catch a Cresselia so you can have good dreams at night. Relax, laugh, and allow yourself plenty of time to rest. I hope you get better soon!!
    But one does not simply catch Cresselia...
  6. Shadows's Avatar
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    @ZeXaLavenRayV;

    ...I'm so sorry, Zima... :( I'm really glad you managed to come out of that, though! What everyone else said - just relax! And there's no point worrying about what other people think of you, or what you did in the past, or anything. The only thing that matters is your opinion of yourself, like I said the other day! I learned that the hard way. Remember that you have a bunch of awesome friends here that'll be with you no matter what! Vodkabingu, Zima!! :D
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    Updated 18th February 2013 at 10:50 AM by Shadows (my phone likes to leave off words... :P)
  7. The Guardian Sylveon's Avatar
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    Glad to hear your ok. Get plenty of rest and don't let anything interfere with your happiness because life and your overall health is what's important. Feel better Zima ^_^
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  8. Berrenta's Avatar
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    Anxiety attacks suck. Been through that crap before, and doing fine now. Try and relax, and you'll be okay.
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  9. Niji's Avatar
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    I'm so glad you're okay D: !!!! I hope you recover soon, and that nothing that ever happens again. You're strong- you can beat your negative emotions. When I feel myself worrying and bringing myself down about things (often) I find a reason why it doesn't matter, and then push it aside by focusing on something else. I remember Yuma and his Kattobingu. I have things I bring into my mind to make myself happy, like the lyrics of BRAVING!, thinking of chibi characters, or my friends. Know that you're not alone, you have people who will always be on your side, and that you are not at fault. You could try talking to a psychiatrist or counselor for help with making you feel better, and whatever else. Remember your Vodkabingu :) !!
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  10. Please Understand's Avatar
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    @ZeXaLavenRayV; @Zima; @Shadows; YOU ALL HAVE THE SAME AVATAR/PROFILE PICTURE ITS SO CONFUSING

    Hope this doesn't happen again. Glad to hear ya ok.
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  11. Charles Dunois's Avatar
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    I'm seriously worried about you, now. Please come out of this.
  12. Soulmaster's Avatar
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    Quote Originally Posted by johnr754
    @ZeXaLavenRayV; @Zima; @Shadows; YOU ALL HAVE THE SAME AVATAR/PROFILE PICTURE ITS SO CONFUSING

    Hope this doesn't happen again. Glad to hear ya ok.
    I know right? It is so annoying.

    Yeah just take it easy an such. What DB said sounds like a good thing. Just go cuddle with Russia, that should help a lot.

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