Getting to share my story with the prof.
by, 8th March 2013 at 01:47 AM (165 Views)
As usual, the first week of school was mostly consisted of class orientations, greeting the professor, getting to know some classmates, picking up delivered textbooks and getting your first assignment.
But today, one class in particular caught my interest.
It's something called English Education and stuff, but it's NOT a class for Education majors. No, it's more of a social studies class and the prof told us a few examples of being in a tight spot when you're in a foreign country, or not being able to be part of the "in-crowd". He also brought up identity problems, and said there's a lot of relationship between language and personalities.
So after I heard what he has to say for the class, I felt this might be a turning point. This professor - someone who had studied many cases of society and people problems, someone who had seen many students with problems studying abroad - he might actually be someone who could hear me out. Because when people talk about problems of studying abroad, they only mention the same old problems. But this prof is different - he actually 'digs in deeper' and tries to find the reason behind it in a more human-oriented view.
I don't need sympathy or any "Oh, I understand" sort of response. I just want someone to truly accept that my story - my situation, and I want to talk about my story feeling sure that my listener will not pretend to understand just out of kindness. I don't want to talk with thoughts like "what if what I'm talking sounds like boasting", or "what if what I'm talking sounds like nothing but a whine". No - I need actual feedback - an actual clue or some sort of hint because this is where I might find my identity. Not even my counseler could help me with that.
It has to be someone who knows what it's like to be in my shoes - and the prof just might be the person I can talk to. Because ever since I had spent my childhood in the US, ever since I came back to my home country, ever since I revisted my childhood home... there had been a huge question - a dilemma that had been bothering me for years. I believe and trust that I might find the answer to the question I've always asked myself over a million times.
So now I have arranged a meeting with him for Wednesday. I am looking forward to it.
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