Blunder after blunder
by, 15th May 2013 at 10:28 PM (161 Views)
I really have to do something on not panicking when someone points out a mistake. Admitting the mistake and apologizing all sounds pretty easy but when someone tells me what I've been doing wrong, I get this overwhelming wave of guilt and horrible humiliation and panic.
Like as if I'm the blame and cause of the plague.
I get emotional beyond control and unintentionally cause the speaker to get embarrassed and mad at my actions when it was just a trivial thing. Like suddenly slamming a door or putting down things in a harsh way.
This had been one of my worst traits and issues all my life - nearly going berserk when I'm being told I've done a mistake. I don't know how I should fix it when I'm freaking out from fear every friggin time I'm told a mistake.
Not only that but it lasts for a long time. I feel all blames on me, some of them seemingly telling me that I should offer my life to repay for my mistakes. The overwhelming guilt just won't go away and countless times I have to hide myself where I can cool down and people won't see how I'm a terrible person.
I hate feeling guilt over every freaking time and it's scaring the wits out of me, and it's painful.
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