Outreach: October - Depression
by, 14th October 2011 at 06:00 PM (531 Views)
Hey, everyone! Because this month's Outreach theme is depression, I've decided to write a blog entry on my experiences with the feeling. The state of mind isn't something I or anybody enjoys having, but reflecting on it strangely makes me feel better because I discover how much I've come along (though I still get depressed from time to time).
To start off, I'm a sixteen-year-old guy, and as you may know, teenagers have tricky hormones. xD I sometimes get annoyed at my peers (and myself when looking back) when we complain about trivial matters, but I think it's important our issues be treated as seriously as others'. While we may complain about the silliest things, we don't take into account how unimportant these problems are when we're upset, and hearing "get over it" is the last phrase I want somebody to say to me when I'm already sad or angry. The best method in my opinion is to listen to someone and kindly give them advice; it may not be what they want to hear, but the way you deliver it can greatly affect how well they absorb the advice.
Now to go a bit more personal. When I was younger (around 11 - 12), I experienced the worst depression I've had in my life. I wasn't bullied at school, and my home life was fine; however, I was lonely. I could count the number of friends I had on one hand. I couldn't understand why I wasn't liked, and I became even more depressed when I couldn't find a solution to my problem. Looking back on that time now, I've figured out what was causing that issue - myself. I stayed quiet all the time, I never told anyone about what I was thinking, and I was abrasive toward others.
Even now, I sometimes act the same way. I don't like asking for help because I feel like a burden to others, I refuse to share how I feel with others because I don't want to make them feel bad, and I get upset with people who try to help or understand me. This has only led to more depression. Fortunately, I've been trying to improve myself, and have been successful as of late. :)
To those of you who hate yourselves or don't think you're worthy of anything - you are. Think: would you want your loved ones to hate themselves for no reason? I wouldn't. Would you hate your loved ones for no reason? No. Apply this to yourself, as well. I'm a firm believer that everybody deserves respect, rights, and love; everybody includes ourselves.
And if you feel like you're not loved, you're mistaken. I know it feels that way sometimes; I tend to feel that way when I need a hug or just someone to talk to. But it's not true, so please try to remember that. Also, your friends want to help you, so be a good friend and open the door to your heart for them; don't make them have to barge in all the time.
With that, I am done. If you feel the need to talk to me, don't hesitate. :)
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