by, 9th December 2012 at 08:35 PM (195 Views)
Okay, for over a month, my anxiety has come back and it has been worse than ever. I write my grandma a letter, explaining what all I've been dealing with. She reads the letter and makes me a doctor's appointment on Thursday. When I come into the living room. Here's how this conversation went:
Grandma: You wouldn't have this anxiety if you weren't in church.
Me: Grandma, my anxiety is worse when I'm in church.
Grandma: It shows you're not 'ready to go' when the time comes.
In my mind, I'm just like'Is she serious?" because I know I'm a Christian. I feel that you don't have to be in Church every single service either. I have a spiritual, personal relationship with God. It's a 1-on-1 relationship and she doesn't need to judge me.
She also says that it's basically my fault that I don't have a good paying job and that I can't leave my current location. if I had the money, I would leave in a heartbeat...
just ugh... ;;
Note: I don't want this turning into a religion debate or anything. This is just a venting blog.
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