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Hey. Sorry I haven't been on in a while, but I've been busy. One of the main things that's been on my mind is who I am.

So, here goes nothing...








Since I was four years old, I have been interested in members of both sexes. At the time I thought nothing of it, since I didn't even know what LGBT people were. Then, in middle school, before I really started thinking about sex at all, people started teasing me for being "Gay" or a "(I don't want to write down this word)". Middle school was HELL. When I hit puberty, I didn't think about anyone but girls for a few years. Then, in sophomore year, this REALLY cute guy showed up at school. This was the first time I had EVER thought about a man in a romantic way. (I had, however, been thinking how nice it would be if I were bi all throughout middle school, because then I could be with a guy. Why the hell did it take so long for me to figure it out?) I kinda dismissed it for the whole year, until the end of year trip, where we shared a tent. I also learned that he was gay. For some reason, this made me very happy. Then, when we got back, there was this guy who looked nothing like him there to welcome him back. I assumed that that was his boyfriend, and I got depressed. Anyways, after seeing him, I started getting attracted to other guys. I started reading Yaoi. And I started seriously considering the possibility that I may not be straight. I've been wrestling with this issue for about a year now for several reasons. Middle school was hell, and even though I have nothing against LGBT people, the idea that what the bullies were saying could be true was difficult. I still have a sort of mental block there. I was also conflicted because I wanted so very much for this to be true that I thought that my desire to like guys might be what's making me like guys. Finally, after looking back on my life and telling my brain to shut up, I realized WHY I wanted so desperately to like guys. BECAUSE I WAS BI. This has prompted some new questions.

First off, should I tell my friends? They're all VERY supportive of LGBT people, but I feel it might make things a little bit awkward. Also, I have no clue how I would do it. Just saying "I'm Bi." seems impossible. Then again, coming out to my parents was easy (if kinda awkward).

Anyways, I'm coming out and saying it. I'm Bi-sexual. I'm also asking for advice about what I should do about my friends. (Also, should I try asking out the guy I (still) have a crush on?) Please respond.

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  1. Oswin's Avatar
    Well done for having the courage to come out, that takes balls.

    I don't know what you should do, I guess just tell your friends? Just bite the bullet. I'd assume it would be harder to tell your parents than your friends, because you can always make new friends, but your parents are always your parents.
  2. MegaCharr's Avatar
    *two thumbs up for corage*
    ...Its up to you what you do in life,I learned that even if you do make a mistake or someone find out about you that you didnt want to tell anyone...Life will still goes on...

    PS:That makes the two of us that we are Megaman fans...
    Updated 8th February 2012 at 02:18 PM by MegaCharr
  3. Ino-Chan's Avatar
    I suggest telling them. I told my friends that I was bi, or at least the ones that I care about, and they are fine with it.

    Granted I haven't told my mother, but that's because I'm a wimp.
  4. Megaman's Avatar
    I'm sure my friends will be fine with it (they wouldn't be my friends if they weren't okay with stuff like that). In fact, I know that one of them will think that this is totally awesome. The only problem is that one of the people that I hang out with the most isn't exactly comfortable with anything homosexual. He's a good guy, so he'd never say anything, but I'm worried that our friendship would become kinda awkward. I'm thinking that I'll tell a few of the ones who I trust most individually, gauge their reactions, then come out to everyone. Does that sound like a good idea?
  5. Zenax's Avatar
    Congrats on coming out to your parents. Like PkmGreen said, that takes a lot of courage. More than I have. ;-;

    I think you should tell them, if they are fine with it, though not all at the same time; go one by one, since it'll be less worse if one reacts badly individually than a bunch of them at the same time.

    Of course, they're your friends and you know them better than we do, so ultimately it's all up to you. Good luck on that.

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