Well, in a sort of continuation from my last blog where I whined about life being boring, I'm about to whine about it again. At this point, everything simply sucks. I can't find anything to pass the time and sleeping is still extremely difficult. I actually started typing this blog from my kindle in bed at 4 AM last night. Better than tossing and turning all night because I can't sleep to save my life. But yeah, I'm still with the whole "don't wanna play any of my games" thing. And of course, I'm still posting on forums and watching junk on YouTube all day.
But what do I watch on YouTube? What forums am I posting on? Yep, I'm doing exactly what I don't want to do. I'm watching countless let's plays of video games, especially Minecraft, even though I've had no desire to play Minecraft at all. I haven't played it in about a month now, yet here I am watching others play it. I wonder why? Then on the subject of forums, I'm spending at least half of my day either posting on Gamefaqs or here. Still, I'm posting about games I haven't played since I don't know when. I spend like 70% of my day here discussing X and Y or other crap, but fuck if I know when the last time I played a Pokemon he seriously was. I've turned them on here and there, but haven't done a full play through since Black and white nearly two years ago now. And sometimes I wonder by I'm even excited for X and Y, or why I'm still playing Pokemon even. I hate turn based RPGs, I find no excitement in the battles at all, and pretty much all of the games have 0 replayability for me. Once I beat a Pokemon game, it's over. I can't commit to doing nuzlockes or some other sort of unique play through cause it's just too damn boring. But regardless of all that ranting, guess who has both X and Y pre-ordered and ready to pick up first thing in the morning on release day?
So next, I guess I'll go on about the forum a bit more. But this time about the forum itself and not about its content. I guess I've been here a bit, but holy hell. Sometimes I read through old things, like VMs and PMs and think about how naive I was back then, when I was like 14 or something. I also sometimes think about how much of an asshat I was back then. Like wow. No wonder I got involved in so much drama back then. And even though it just seems like some goofy drama on a site with people you'll probably never know irl, I still think about it sometimes. Actually, I think about it every time I'm on. That drama shit got so tense it led to several users I knew, friends or not, either getting or requesting a ban. And it all started in the old Random Messages. Thinking about it, I don't even know what went wrong. Everything was cool and normal, then it seems like one day things were just different all of a sudden and well...things went wrong. I'm glad it's a part of my past now, but I still can't help but reminisce on it here and there.
But that takes me to the Random Message right now. The one of today. It's a totally different place from when I joined, but I won't complain. People come, people go. New things happen. But in all honesty, I'm glad it isn't like it used to be. Drama is sparse. Even if things were to somehow get overly dramatic, I don't think anything can ever reach what happened back then. Though sometimes I feel a bit like a pest there. It is a place to just post random stuff, but idk. Maybe it's not so much me being a pest, but it's going on my 4th year of posting there and I'm sort of sick of it lol. I never thought you could get sick of a place where the conversation constantly changing. But there's just something about it. Regardless of if the discussion is about how the world should be changed or about how great ostriches are, it feels the same. Why? I just don't know.
As for other parts of the site, the only other places I spend time are the X and Y topics and blogging. Well, the XY doesn't work for me half of the time. Usually because of my Pokemon knowledge getting more and more rusty. I'm sure most of the time I make myself look like a goon than actually contribute because I don't know shit. But hey, at least there's the topics that don't require previous knowledge, right? I'm hella careful with my opinions though, because I know it's not uncommon to be questioned about why you think of something a certain way. And when the going gets to that...I get going. I can't even back up my own thoughts and opinions with reasons. The other part, blogs, I guess there isn't too much to say. I blog every now and then, usually when I think I have great idea (that usually ends up being the shittiest thing I've ever thought and I subsequently regret even mentioning it), or some other reason. Like how right now I'm just gonna type about crap cause I feel like it. I won't lie though, I'm totally jealous of people who get like 20 comments by posting a sentence long blog or something.
Moving away from the forum topics for a bit, I will now talk about video games. I know I just said I'm near sick of them, but I still have some opinions on some upcoming stuff. So, I recently realized I'm actually not that hyped for SSB4. I don't know, other than Mega Man nothing new is really interesting to me. Villager I guess, but only a little bit. I was really at the point where I was willing to buy a WiiU just for it, but I think at this point I'll be content with just buying the 3DS version. But maybe they'll announce someone that blows my socks off. I know for one I'm damn sick of Nintenedo adding 20 characters from one series. I get that Mario is the trademark series, but do they really have to make nearly half of the roster Mario characters? The new characters are a good step away from dipping into the series already in the game, but I hope they do some more. I will be severely disappointed if Little Mac or Simon Belmont aren't added. Or if they're going to include Sonic again, at least give him a good move set. But I really have hopes sorta low. Mega Man was a surprise, Villager was kind of expected, WFT was wat, but I guess I can hope.
As for more video games, the PS4 comes out in a couple months. In all honesty, I'm definitely more of a Sony person. Something I don't mention here too often because well...this is primarily a Pokemon board. Don't get me wrong though, I'm not a console elitist. I've bought just about every system, whether it was made by Nintendo, Sony, Microsoft, Sega, whoever. Nintendo was definitely my favorite growing up though. Mainly because the PS1 was a popular platform for turn based RPGs, which like I mentioned earlier, I hate. There still the Nintendo series I like though. Kirby, Luigi's Mansion, Paper Mario, the Mario games that aren't side scrollers, Zelda, etc. But damn. Starting with the Wii things are getting too gimmicky for me. Most of the Wii games I do enjoy are the ones that can be played with a standard controller. Than onto the WiiU...I don't have one, but it seems every game is Super Advance Mario World Land Karting 3D U Bros. No I don't like Pikmin, and other things like SSB and the new Sonic game are also coming out for the 3DS. Will I ever buy a WiiU? Sure, when I can get a used one for super cheap.
Talking about Nintendo series reminds me...I'm so, so done with Animal Crossing. I know I dedicated and entire blog to complaining about it, but said complaints need to be taken even further. I should've known what I was getting myself into before I bought it. I don't know why I didn't ask myself at any time before it released "Hmm. You know what, I've only played the other three Animal Crossing games I own for two months tops and quit. Should I really spend $40 on this?". Nope, not once did I ask myself that. So of course, I bought New Leaf giddy as a schoolgirl and played it for...one month exactly. On that last day, I just saved the game, set my 3DS aside, and never looked back. And like my others, I won't look back. Because Animal Crossing is one those games where after you leave it, its too tedious to get back into the feel of it. So yeah, that $40? That $40 that I COULD'VE SPENT ON FREAKING LUIGI'S MANSION 2?!
...Yes, it is currently just sitting in my 3DS in a corner somewhere.
But I digress. Anyways, back to the PS4, yes it comes out in a few months. As tempting as it is, I may wait. Two of the three games I'm most hyped for, Watch Dogs and Assassin's Creed 4, are also being released on the PS3, a system I own already. The other game I'm hyped for, inFamous Second Son, doesn't come out until like February next year I believe. So if I really wanted to, I guess I could hold off until then. But I do wonder, will AC4 and WD look the same, or better on the PS4? It's definitely got some good graphics, but I don't think the jump is as drastic as the difference between the PS2 and PS3 or even the PS1 and PS2, so maybe I won't notice? Then again, it comes out around holiday time, and $400 is pretty average for what I get for the holiday. So maybe I'll go ahead and get it as a Christmas gift.
Lol, I've actually been typing this blog for a couple days now from my Kindle. Whenever I have a thought about something, I've been opening my note pad and typing out whatever I was thinking about. In case you couldn't tell by the length of this, I think a lot. This is sort of a useless little insert though, I doubt anyone has even read this far or is still reading. I probably seem a bit bipolar at this point, but my opinions have been steadily changing even over the course of two days.
Oh right, the other thing I wanted to talk about. My friend. I actually don't have a lot of irl friends. Mainly because I'm a loner. I can't even stand large gatherings or being around family for too long. School's fine, cause I can just take up the corner desk and be left alone. The only two friends I have are very similar to me interest wise. Well, one more than the other. The one I'm about to talk about is the one whose interests are less similar. So yeah, we go over each others houses a lot. My other friend is like me and would rather play a game together online or skype each other. But this friend, we see each other a lot. I don't mind going to her house every now and then, but it's done turned into a nearly twice a week thing. Like I said earlier, I'm a loner. I need to time to myself. But nearly every day she calls me to ask when I'm coming over. At this point I'm kinda making things up. I know it sounds like a dick move, but I would mind if it weren't for the fact that every time I go to her house, she talks about her boyfriend. "Omg, I haven't seen Tanner in a week. Me and Tanner were at the beach yesterday. When I turn 18, me and Tanner are moving to Montana. Isn't Tanner so cute? Tanner hasn't texted me in two days, what do I do? Tanner Tanner Tanner!!". Like, I get she likes her boyfriend and all, but I just...don't really care. I don't even have a boyfriend, so I don't get why she tries to ask me for relationship advice. I mean, I go over there to hang out with her. I can understand her telling me a few things, but it's every single moment I'm there. I get we don't go to the same school anymore and she wants to see me, but still
Speaking of school, I'm going into my senior year in less than a month now. Should be a breeze. Nearly all art classes, with my only serious classes being Business, AP English, and Astronomy. I like school because it's something to do and I love learning, but ugh. Waking up at 6AM every day, staying at school for 8 hours, then homework. To make manners worse, I usually get stuck in a lunch that has none of my friends, or I have none of my friends in any of my classes. Thus once again leading to me being the weird kid who never talks in the corner of the class. But even if things do end up that kid, it's my last year. No big deal. After that, I'm going to college of course. I really want to go to one for art, even though I'm horrible at drawing. I figure if I'm going to college for at least 4 years, I want to do something I love, whether I'm good at it or not. But thinking about that reminds me how afraid I am of the end of school. It's essentially the end of childhood. After that, I have to go into the real world. I have to actually start thinking about what to do with my future, jobs to pay bills, getting my own place...yet at the same time I think about how no one else seems to have too many problems transitioning from high school to real life. I know it's not just me though.