I've been sort of down recently.
by, 13th November 2012 at 11:51 AM (345 Views)
I have to admit, lately, as I've made a few more friends in different places, I'm starting to be very selfish in comparing myself to them mentally. And the conclusion, as one would imagine, is not a good one. I just feel lately that I don't have anything to offer anybody. It's all fine and dandy being "a nice person", but most people I know are nice people who are also funny and talented in some area or another. They're kind, but they'll also make you laugh and draw you an awesome picture or make you a video or write you a passage or play you a song. I'm not saying talent/skills dictate personal worth, but I am awfully sick of lacking them. I've tried many things over the years so far; sports, dance, crafts, music, art, writing. And I've been average at them all, if not worse in the case of ever having anything to write. I'm not funny, I don't have any remarkable ability or trait with anything, and honestly, just sometimes, being told "but you're a kind person!" feels like a little bit of a cop-out for the fact that unlike most people here I have nothing else to offer even after trying a variety of things freely/out of curiosity. I just wish I had something other than "being a nice person" to share and be proud of.
Sometimes, being around such a lovely, capable bunch can get stifling for a few minutes, and for that truth I feel even worse still.
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