Melty

Half-Full

, 19th August 2010 at 11:12 PM (243 Views)

OMG, emo post!

(Spoilered so that my reality does not inadvertently affect your own :X)

If you want to call it that. I am lucky enough to not be restricted by cumbersome emotions. No jealousy, no sadness, little lasting-attachment-to-people-who-aren't-in-my-family, other things I can't think of at the moment. Not because I feel it's badass to pretend I don't have emotions, but because I actually don't have them. For various reasons. I carved away envy, sloughed off sadness, and have yet to be stricken by the weeds of "love" (among other things). I call this state Half-Full. And why not Half-Empty? Because I feel children develop the more complex emotions as they age; as such, a normal adult can be considered "full," which makes me underdeveloped and therefore half-full. Which isn't to say I don't have any emotions; I do. Less breadth, but equal depth. And most of the pool is taken up by various forms of displeasure.

Do I have a problem with this? No. It does make it harder to sympathize with people (sympathy: useless. Discarded), and has perhaps resulted in me seeming aloof. But I'm cool with that. People don't necessarily want my advice, so I don't bother giving it to imaginary them. They say "boohoo, my girlfriend is my favorite person but unfaithful. What do I do?" In such a situations I suggest "Peace out, homegirl," then getting caught up on your reading. I feel that this is The Answer, but other don't agree with me and feel it not even an answer, much less The Answer. And what do I know? These emotions are alien to me, and I've come to accept that no one else wants the straightforward life I have carved for myself.

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Hallowheart - 19th August 2010 11:16 PM
Huh... I like your reasoning on why it would be half-full rather than half-empty.
No Prophet - 19th August 2010 11:18 PM
i think you've more or less formed a shell around yourself, and as a result, don't feel emotions the same way as everyone else.
Phoenicks - 20th August 2010 11:57 AM
I wouldn't call it 'luck' so much as a choice. So many people are caught up in their own little worlds that they get emotionally attached to everything. I need look no farther than Facebook to see every neural flicker that has passed through somebody's head. "Hey, here's a thought! Hey World, look at this!"

But back to choice; nobody controls how one feels but oneself, I've always said. Too many people just reflexively blurt out whatever they think and get attached to their opinion in some emotional way. Good for you for not doing that.

But bah, I shouldn't lecture you. :P
Melty - 20th August 2010 03:46 PM
Originally Posted by Hallowheart

Huh... I like your reasoning on why it would be half-full rather than half-empty.

To be fair, that's the reasoning I always use. Is the cup half-full or half-empty? It depends on which way the liquid is going. If you're filling it up, it's half-full. If you've been sipping on it for fifteen minutes, it's half-empty.

Originally Posted by DCM

i think you've more or less formed a shell around yourself, and as a result, don't feel emotions the same way as everyone else.

It's more of a castle town. Visitors are welcome, but the only ones that ever show up are the barbarian hordes. I shut the gates, pour boiling oil over the walls, then get back to business in a week (figuratively speaking) or so.

Originally Posted by Phoenicks

I wouldn't call it 'luck' so much as a choice. So many people are caught up in their own little worlds that they get emotionally attached to everything. I need look no farther than Facebook to see every neural flicker that has passed through somebody's head. "Hey, here's a thought! Hey World, look at this!"

But back to choice; nobody controls how one feels but oneself, I've always said. Too many people just reflexively blurt out whatever they think and get attached to their opinion in some emotional way. Good for you for not doing that.

But bah, I shouldn't lecture you. :P

I don't think it counts as a lecture if you're agreeing with me :D
Phoenicks - 20th August 2010 08:42 PM
Ah, it's just so rare and refreshing to see somebody who doesn't whine about the flavor of the day (Or are you whining about whiners? :P ). Anyways, yeah.