http://bmgf.bulbagarden.net/blogs/33516/ Bulbagarden - The original Pokémon Community en Sun, 19 May 2013 17:07:47 GMT vBulletin 60 http://bmgf.bulbagarden.net/images/styles/Millenium/misc/rss.jpg http://bmgf.bulbagarden.net/blogs/33516/ http://bmgf.bulbagarden.net/blogs/33516/been-awhile-but-thought-i-would-share-57642/ Wed, 17 Apr 2013 16:09:39 GMT It seems i only ever do a Blog when i am a tad depressed, shame about that but it is also the only time that i really ever think about things clearly. I decided to try and find a Girl Friend lately, but when i was sitting down drinking a coffee in one of my local Coffee shops it hit me. What... It seems i only ever do a Blog when i am a tad depressed, shame about that but it is also the only time that i really ever think about things clearly.

I decided to try and find a Girl Friend lately, but when i was sitting down drinking a coffee in one of my local Coffee shops it hit me.

What does Love actually feel like?
Will i know it?
Will i even feel it?

I have been alone since i was 13 years old, I did not have any Friends, I was classified as a "Loner" and "Cold" in there terms and even by the teachers (I did not care) and I never really had much experience (Luck) with woman.

It may sound like i am just being Depressing but i really have no idea.

Sometimes i have to check to see if my heart is still beating because i feel heartless and cold towards people.

I walk past all these couples in the streets holding hands and enjoying life and wonder, Why cant i find something like that, find a little happiness, All i have done is work Hard entirely Bypassing my Childhood and Youthful fun years and now for once i have no idea what to do, I am studying to become an Architect but think "is it really worth it, I have No Friends, No lover or anything"

My Dream was to be able to Work hard and Emigrate to Japan and work in the peaceful environment while perfecting my trade, This is still my dream it is really the only thing keeping me going at this point but not having someone to share this with is just . . . painful.

Well, sob story over for me.

For now all i can do is work towards my goal and see if i achieve it or if all my effort goes to waste.

Old man Shadow Signing off for now. ]]> Shadow-Lucario http://bmgf.bulbagarden.net/blogs/33516/been-awhile-but-thought-i-would-share-57642/ http://bmgf.bulbagarden.net/blogs/33516/have-not-really-done-awhile-but-thought-i-would-update-54309/ Thu, 29 Nov 2012 19:04:45 GMT Just about to hit Christmas now, about to finish off my latest project for Uni, all should be well, not really though, I had to spend my Birthday on my own bought my self some presents from me to me as they say. But let me tell you it is not all that fun, sitting in your room alone, devoid of... Just about to hit Christmas now, about to finish off my latest project for Uni, all should be well, not really though, I had to spend my Birthday on my own bought my self some presents from me to me as they say.

But let me tell you it is not all that fun, sitting in your room alone, devoid of people to call friends, no one to wish you a happy birthday, but that is just a minor part the holiday i really hate is Christmas because it is like a birthday but lasts longer.

Not one of the best days i had today either, i was driving into town to go and get a book, and found out the hard way that there are alot of twats around going crazy on Christmas, First off i was trying to park my car and had the space stolen from me by a coffin dodger who thinks that waiting does not apply to him, only to then add insult to injury when i go to get the other space i was waiting for only to have the twat in from get out and rush to my car, opening my door screaming "That was my space, go to the one behind!" I wont tell you what i did because it is not appropriate for this website, so yeah, this is just another reason that i really HATE! Christmas, Yippee for me -_-.

So do me a favor This year, dont send me messages saying Happy Christmas because it never really is for me, dont know what it is about me but every year seems to be a disaster, so i just gave up :rs136: (Just a random pokemon) ]]> Shadow-Lucario http://bmgf.bulbagarden.net/blogs/33516/have-not-really-done-awhile-but-thought-i-would-update-54309/ http://bmgf.bulbagarden.net/blogs/33516/still-being-alone-better-than-being-around-people-you-dont-like-28260/ Wed, 20 Apr 2011 22:00:21 GMT I have found that over the years 1 truth has emerged to the top of my mind and always seems to be the truth in my opinion, over the years i have been in contact with alot of people some morons some are ok but in the end everyone leaves, and you have to be on your own in the end and for those of us... I have found that over the years 1 truth has emerged to the top of my mind and always seems to be the truth in my opinion, over the years i have been in contact with alot of people some morons some are ok but in the end everyone leaves, and you have to be on your own in the end and for those of us that dont have amazing luck in finding a kind woman our lives are just one big hell hole of work and loneliness.

so i have started to think that if you look at it in the point of view that even when you are around people you are still alone and that when you were born you came in alone and when you die you leave alone, really life is shit. . . :mad: .

but back to the point at hand i have been on my own for over 12 years now working for my living and still trying to improve myself through university, but i have now found that i feel easy about staying in my room alone while all the others go partying, because there is no one their that can hurt you or poke fun at you then.

“When we truly realize that we are all alone is when we need others the most”

“If you are lonely when you're alone, you are in bad company” ]]> Shadow-Lucario http://bmgf.bulbagarden.net/blogs/33516/still-being-alone-better-than-being-around-people-you-dont-like-28260/ http://bmgf.bulbagarden.net/blogs/33516/how-two-faced-world-can-24641/ Tue, 08 Feb 2011 23:14:27 GMT there was someone that i knew for ALONG time who just got back into contact with me recently and asked for some advice and cheering up. 2 weeks down the line now and she is much happier and she took the advice. but JUST like everyone i meet as soon as i have helped them they turn on you, i... there was someone that i knew for ALONG time who just got back into contact with me recently and asked for some advice and cheering up.

2 weeks down the line now and she is much happier and she took the advice.

but JUST like everyone i meet as soon as i have helped them they turn on you, i asked her if she wanted to get a coffee on the weekend to catch up because i have not seen her in about 5 - 6 years like most NICE people do.

. . . . she then said in a calm voice "why would i?, i dont want to be on a one to one basis or catch up because there are other people i WOULD rather be with or be around than you and really i just dont want to be around YOU!" . . . . . . :bawl:

after all the crap i have had to put up with for the past few years and recently the one person i thought May have been a friend just used me and abused me . . . . this means that i now have NO people around me that are friends or even any Aquatinces. and i can honestly say that this has now just pushed it . . . i really felt my feelings being replaced my disgust and recentment for people. :disgust::bawl: ]]> Shadow-Lucario http://bmgf.bulbagarden.net/blogs/33516/how-two-faced-world-can-24641/ http://bmgf.bulbagarden.net/blogs/33516/do-you-ever-feel-alone-pt-2-23835/ Sat, 22 Jan 2011 21:30:40 GMT today this feeling was stronger than ever i was walking through my local town center, only to find that everyone was laughing and enjoying themselves and when i started to walk by with my weekly shopping i found that i became the center of attention with kids saying "why is he wearing that it is freezing" then laughing (i over heat sometimes and find that i walk around in short sleeves to cool me down no matter what weather).

after people started to stare i heared people start saying "weirdo" and . . . other things. do people really not understand the everyone has feelings?

i find that i am beginning to really hate people in general . . . . . .

Beauty is ever to the lonely mind a shadow fleeting; she is never plain. She is a visitor who leaves behind the gift of grief, the souvenir of pain. ]]> Shadow-Lucario http://bmgf.bulbagarden.net/blogs/33516/do-you-ever-feel-alone-pt-2-23835/ http://bmgf.bulbagarden.net/blogs/33516/do-you-ever-feel-alone-23787/ Fri, 21 Jan 2011 23:09:07 GMT Do you ever feel so alone that you think that there is no one out there for you. when you go out to try and forget and come back more misreable than when you left. when you go out and see all these couples and people just clicking and then there is you who only get a glance because people are... Do you ever feel so alone that you think that there is no one out there for you.

when you go out to try and forget and come back more misreable than when you left.

when you go out and see all these couples and people just clicking and then there is you who only get a glance because people are wondering what you are doing.

when the only time someone speaks about you is to be able to scare their kids to think about strangers saying things like "do you want someone like that to take you away forever"

The person who tries to live alone will not succeed as a human being.
His heart withers if it does not answer another heart.
His mind shrinks away if he hears only the echoes of his own thoughts and finds no other inspiration.

Sometimes the pain's too strong to bare...and life gets so hard you just don't care. You feel so alone you just sit and cry...every second you wish you could die. Then you start thinking who would care...if one day they woke up-and you weren't there

Thank you for your time. . . . ]]> Shadow-Lucario http://bmgf.bulbagarden.net/blogs/33516/do-you-ever-feel-alone-23787/