What do you want to be when you grow up?
by, 16th February 2011 at 11:30 PM (257 Views)
You know, I really don't remember ever having a real answer to this question, I honestly have no ambition, but having to fill out next year's class schedule, I'm wondering if I should get it together and go find my career goal.
It's scary how ego-heavy I will sound, but my only goal at the moment is being Valedictorian (Which I've actually got a good shot to become, ) but I've never taken the time out to go beyond that, and I'm wondering if I should.
I could become a doctor or engineer, but I'd just be fitting a stereotype doing that, and I don't know if that's what I want. I think I have good enough skills to be a doctor, like calmness, memory, being able to connect with people quickly, but staying detached enough to not let a death personally affect me.
I could be an engineer with precision, focus, and being able to work alone or with groups.
They both have monetary perks too and I never have given up, and I might be okay with doing something with that.
There is also a side of me that wants to be a writer, or a comedian, or even just a director.
The artistic, cynical, and strangely hopeful part.
The part that is like everyone else, the part that doesn't talk much, the part with the problems, but this is the part that is the realest.
I'll always be Angad, no matter what I do, but I think if I did jobs like these, I'd be forced to be real all the time, and the real me has trouble making friends.
I don't really have many hobbies, but one of them has always been self-analyzation on both sides of myself, I criticize myself all the time.
I'm cocky, I'm a smartass, I'm too loud, I have stage fright, I'm a coward, I'm alone, I'm needy, I'm whiny, I'm a hypocrite, I'm selfish, I'm impatient, I'm bored due to my inability to get up and change things, I'm rude, I'm so many bad things, but I'm a hell of a lot of good things too, which I started with a small percentage above.
I don't want to seem cocky, so I'll keep them out.
The stupid thing about the situation is that I feel I have too many possibilities to decide at all, but it's been almost ten years since I've truly been conscious, I haven't made an iota of progress, so I need some advice about what the hell I should even do, and I can't ask people in real life, since I don't want to get this impression that I consider their issues unimportant to the point, that I'm complaining about having too many possibilities.
Sorry if I've offended any of you with the insult of this being an actual problem,
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