Life and All that Wonderful Stuff that Surrounds it.
by, 25th March 2013 at 03:49 AM (299 Views)
So I realise that it's been a while. Such a long while that it makes people question my continued existence upon the internet. However, I am here now to put some concern to ease. I have been off and on the internet. Mostly, I have been on YouTube and dA... where my input is not needed all the time. The reason being is that I need a lot of time to myself. Not just because of my own sense of anxiety or not wanting to talk to people. I actually want to talk to a lot of people, though it's been difficult.
My relationship for these past three almost four years has been wonderful me. All wonderful sans the fact that... this relationship unfortunately has bigger baggage than my own past relationship that veteran Bulbagardeners know of and that I shall not reveal here at this time. This baggage with my fiance involves a crazy ex that is demanding money for a child that is unknown whether or not it is my fiance's. Mostly because this woman is a shameless cheater, and thinks that her infidelity should be overlooked in this regard because there is 'no way in hell that my daughter is not yours.'
I may be overstepping the boundaries that I had already put in place for myself, though this is nothing I haven't ranted about before elsewhere (ergo, I'm not exactly too worried about revealing this information to those that are interested). It's just that these issues have been going on for the past two years that I've been with my fiance at current, and it's made me crack every now and again to the point of having an appointmemt created for social anxiety and depression (however the results returned negative). Though, that said, it's been tough for me to actually focus on anything aside from uploading videos to my YouTube where I'm actually enjoying myself in solitude -- or with friends in some cases.
Aside from all of that, the other things that have been riding hard on me have been the subpoena that my fiance had been served with from aforementioned crazy ex demanding child support, having attained a child custody lawyer, and scheduling appointments to a fertility doctor to have our fertility and sterility checked for future occasion.
I haven't really been talking much, and I apologise immensely for it. I'm going to try and pop in more, though I cannot make many revealing posts regarding this subject. As I said, this situation is a reason that I haven't been active in too many places. Now that things have escalated to waiting for a court date to be set, I may be being monitored for possibly being deemed as an interested party in this divorce and child support debacle.
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