We Need Guidance, We've Been Misled.

... aaaaannnnd that's what she said.

Anyways... finally got around to getting yo my surgery. Thought it was going to be earlier than this, but apparently I was wrong. I was going to bitch about it on the day that I thought I was going in for the surgery, but I had to bitch about more important things that go on in my life to get it out -- just because that, to me, was more important than not getting the surgery done at that very time.

But! The surgery's done -- and ...

... that I'm more miserable in my life then I have ever been before. .-. Though... just as a side note... no, this isn't a suicide entry -- suicide is the cheap person's way of running away from it all entirely.

However... ... I don't think I ever realized how sad and miserable I really am until I had a pretty heated argument with my mother the other day when getting back from my check up from the hospital. There was some comment about how 'rude' I was being when in all actuality, ...

So... I was thinking the other day... mainly because of this dream I had.... However, do you believe that it's possible to die for just a moment and then come back to life without the use of medical supplies or equipment? The reason I'm asking is because I had an experience... and I don't really know what to make of it and I've been thinking about it off and on for the past three days since I've had the dream.

See... in the dream, I was struck by a bolt of lightning -- and like with ...

Well... seems that that time's finally just right around the corner for me. Haha, I'm thinking that I should be really happy, but I'm more nervous than anything to be perfectly honest. It's been sending me into being somewhat of a wreck with it's arrival coming up. It's just, I've had my port in my chest for two years now, and granted, I've gone through two different port removals in the past, I know that this is going to be... feeling weird for a good week or so. ><;;

But yeah... ...

Yes... I'm impatient, so shoot me.

However, I tried downloading the HG ROM for my DS emulator -- came to it playing slowly on my DeSmuME and not even getting past Oak before the emulator just stays black on my No$GBA. I tried reading up on some of the issues that other people were having with it, and even downloaded the pokefix.rar for HGSS for the No$GBA and yet after I get it encrypted, it says that it's no longer a valid format. I dunno, maybe I'm just incompetent or something ...