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Took a Trip to the ER Last Night... and Oh Yeah, Today is My 4th Bulbaversary

Shiay — Thu, 13 Jun 2013 14:32:03 GMT

I had to take a trip to the emergency room last night because of recurring lower abdominal pain in my right side. However, that wasn't the only reason since when I decided I really had to go, the day before, I was literally able to do nothing. I had gone to bed shivering and feeling as if I were burning at some points, and then freezing at other points in time in the night. @___@ To make matters worse, I had gotten a throbbing headache, an annoying cough that doesn't seem at all phlegm provoked, nausea (luckily no vomiting), and aching joints (which was even worse since my joints that have been replaced were the most severely effected -- made me not want to get up for anything).

I won't go into other details, because people wouldn't want to hear about those anyways... though I was accompanied to the hospital with my fiancé on a day where I was able to take the bus since... well... anyone we know with a car either doesn't pick up their phone, or lives too far away to make it, and the bus to the hospital is only, like, a five minute ride since it's literally right around the corner a couple blocks down.

Though, the doctor took a look at me, drew five phials of blood, gave me a CT scan, and a pelvic exam (which I was kind of uncomfortable with, since I'm not exactly used to a male doctor poking around up there -- unfortunately, the female doctor that usually did that aside from the male doctor that saw me wasn't in last night). Fortunately, all of my results turned up negative, though the doctor said that with the symptoms I told them I was experiencing, that it could be an early onset of appendicitis. @____@

I prescribed some anti-nausea, and some strong pain killers to last for the next couple of weeks, though I'll definitely be keeping watch on my body and what I'm feeling. @___@ He said if the pain persists and gets worse, then I should definitely be back in to get it looked at.

Aside from that, my coughing is still persisting, and now I sound like a female version of the movie trailers guy. >:U So raspy, and weird at times. Stupid coughing. *takes some NyQuil*

Now... onto my Bulbaversary....

This is the first time that I've actually posted a Bulbaversary entry, and it's a day when I'm actually out of sorts from being on my pain killer medication, and having gotten back from the ER just this morning at 2 AM (it's 9:18 AM as of now).

Just... I don't know, man. There's a lot of great memories here, and there's a lot of great people that I've met here and have been happy to converse with. Over time, and after a lot of drama and shit people know I've been through (well, the veteran Bulbagardeners that I converse with more times than not these days and have known me since or near my join date), I know I've grown distant. I know that there's still a lot of drama and shit going on, and I appreciate every single one of you that have helped me and supported me through tough times.

I just hope that I can come back full throttle once many of my barriers and obstacles that are preventing me from enjoying much of anything are overcome. There have been so many things in the past, and continuing even now -- especially now since for the past two, almost three years, I've been struggling with my fiancé to keep a roof over our heads, save up money for us to co back to college, and I've been so stressed and feeling hard pressed as I continue to stand by my fiancé's side to deal with his past mistake he wishes he never bothered with since she happens to be one of the biggest, shameless cheaters and liars to come into existence.

Aside from that, I've also been struggling further to create my portfolios for Rooster Teeth Productions and for FUNimation, both of which are here in Texas. I know these things are shooting a bit high, I won't deny that at all. Though with experience and credited roles already from having worked with FUNimation back in 2008, I'm more than confident that with time, patience, determination, passion, and recuperation, I can achieve doing this and helping to facilitate a better living.

A special shoutout does go out to @yourlilemogirl; because we've been keeping the most tabs on one another lately.

More names will be listed once I figure out what the fuck some of you changed your names to. Or you can just comment being all like, "YO, BITCH. WHERE'S MY SHOUTOUT?"

Life and All that Wonderful Stuff that Surrounds it.

Shiay — Mon, 25 Mar 2013 08:49:51 GMT

So I realise that it's been a while. Such a long while that it makes people question my continued existence upon the internet. However, I am here now to put some concern to ease. I have been off and on the internet. Mostly, I have been on YouTube and dA... where my input is not needed all the time. The reason being is that I need a lot of time to myself. Not just because of my own sense of anxiety or not wanting to talk to people. I actually want to talk to a lot of people, though it's been difficult.

My relationship for these past three almost four years has been wonderful me. All wonderful sans the fact that... this relationship unfortunately has bigger baggage than my own past relationship that veteran Bulbagardeners know of and that I shall not reveal here at this time. This baggage with my fiance involves a crazy ex that is demanding money for a child that is unknown whether or not it is my fiance's. Mostly because this woman is a shameless cheater, and thinks that her infidelity should be overlooked in this regard because there is 'no way in hell that my daughter is not yours.'

I may be overstepping the boundaries that I had already put in place for myself, though this is nothing I haven't ranted about before elsewhere (ergo, I'm not exactly too worried about revealing this information to those that are interested). It's just that these issues have been going on for the past two years that I've been with my fiance at current, and it's made me crack every now and again to the point of having an appointmemt created for social anxiety and depression (however the results returned negative). Though, that said, it's been tough for me to actually focus on anything aside from uploading videos to my YouTube where I'm actually enjoying myself in solitude -- or with friends in some cases.

Aside from all of that, the other things that have been riding hard on me have been the subpoena that my fiance had been served with from aforementioned crazy ex demanding child support, having attained a child custody lawyer, and scheduling appointments to a fertility doctor to have our fertility and sterility checked for future occasion.

I haven't really been talking much, and I apologise immensely for it. I'm going to try and pop in more, though I cannot make many revealing posts regarding this subject. As I said, this situation is a reason that I haven't been active in too many places. Now that things have escalated to waiting for a court date to be set, I may be being monitored for possibly being deemed as an interested party in this divorce and child support debacle.

Update on LP stuff

Shiay — Thu, 05 Jul 2012 05:00:12 GMT

So it's been a while since I've actually sat down to update my blog on videos I've been uploading. Been focusing on other things than playing games as of late (or getting distracted by Civilization III). It's all good, though! Got all of Episode 2 of The Walking Dead played and finished, though! So I'm going to have gameplay of that uploaded within this week and sometime within the next. :3 Other than that, I do have to get back on Assassin's Creed.

Anyways and as always... I do hope that anyone that watches is at the very least entertained by whatever commentary or fails I manage to put in my gameplay. o: Just doing all of this for the fun of it more than anything.

Here are some videos that have been uploaded within the past two weeks:

Assassin's Creed -->

http://youtu.be/UaqW2U6q4Dc
http://youtu.be/32xXkBgvxxk

Left 4 Dead 2 Shenanigans -->

http://youtu.be/pHYTvIzjMiU
http://youtu.be/bklYbRZhA1g
http://youtu.be/rXkEDaZagYc
http://youtu.be/GXzLzqzBUCE

Let's Fail -->

http://youtu.be/555bcx6OoH4

The Elder Scrolls V: Skyrim -->

http://youtu.be/19KKC1A5S6Y

The Walking Dead -->

http://youtu.be/lPH3ZT8i3qI
http://youtu.be/IsbEAOICAnw
http://youtu.be/NyWR1q4jCds
http://youtu.be/i6-dZSLO2GQ
http://youtu.be/kOzNcgT98Sk

Woo~ Let's Play and Let's Fail at some things~

Shiay — Tue, 19 Jun 2012 19:57:16 GMT

I'm a little delayed getting something posted up on here. I did, however, get a new schedule up on my YouTube channel! So that's pretty awesome. My schedule, at the moment, is looking like this:

Sun: No upload

Mon: Assassin's Creed (1 - 2 times per day)

Tue: The Walking Dead (1 time per day)

Wed: Assassin's Creed (1 - 2 times per day)

Thur: (The Walking Dead 1 time per day)

Fri: Assassin's Creed + The Walking Dead (2 uploads)

Sat: No upload

Also got a new segment up called 'Let's Fail', because... well... let's face it, I'm going to fail... a lot.

Anyways... here's some of the most recent uploads since yesterday:

Assassin's Creed:

Part 3 - http://youtu.be/yjTDLjg-jAU
Part 4 - http://youtu.be/HfJMiHU2VqA
Part 5 - http://youtu.be/gWd9eXvSS5E

The Walking Dead:

Chapter 1 Part 2 - http://youtu.be/_yMjAAmHj54

Let's Fail:

Assassin's Creed - http://youtu.be/hj1ZrlhDZao

Well... fine....

Shiay — Fri, 15 Jun 2012 22:04:56 GMT

Just because I'm rather bored and want something to do while I'm waiting for my fiancé to come home. *le sigh*

LAYER ONE : THE OUTSIDE
- Name: Jay Dunn
- Eye Color: Dark Brown
- Hair Style/Color: Dark brown fading to lighter. Straight... kind of... slight waves here and there, but by no means 'wavy'. Never tied up. Mid-low back length.
- Height: 5'4" and never getting taller.
- Clothing style: Whatever da fuq I want. Generally consists of geek, gamer, anime, nerdy quote, witty shirts, and lots of jeans. Shoes are generally DC or éS.

LAYER TWO: THE INSIDE
- Your fears: Hm... well, I did post these ones before on here, so... Astraphobia and Sociophobia.
- Your guilty pleasure: Sex... and cheesecake.
- Your biggest pet peeve: When people don't clean up after themselves.
- Your ambitions for the future: Good artist, I guess.

LAYER THREE: THOUGHTS
- Your first thoughts waking up: Time to get on that AssCreed playthrough.
- What you think about most: My fiancé and what he's doing or thinking through the day. That, and games I plan on recording me playing lately.
- What you think about before bed: Depends.
- You think your best quality is: *shrugs* I'm a generally nice person.

LAYER FOUR: WHAT'S BETTER?
- Single or group dates: Single dates... two's company, but three and over's a crowd.
- To be loved or respected: Depends.
- Beauty or brains: I'll go for the smarts. I can't stand people that can't match my wit or even go beyond it.
- Dogs or cats: Cats all the way.

LAYER FIVE: DO YOU?
- Lie: I have the capacity to do so, yes... and I'm definitely not above lying if it means benefiting in a good way -- for myself, or others.
- Believe in yourself: Yeah, I suppose I do. When it concerns certain things.
- Believe in love: Lmao, if I didn't, I wouldn't be engaged.

LAYER SIX: EVER?
- Been on stage: Several times. Played the Ghost of Christmas Past for a theatre performance once.
- Done drugs: Prescribed drugs. :B
- Changed who you were to fit in: looollll No.

LAYER SEVEN: FAVORITES
- Favorite color: Red
- Favorite animal: Penguins.
- Favorite movie: V for Vendetta.
- Favorite game: Uh... there's a lot.

LAYER EIGHT: AGE
- Day your next birthday you will be: Monday, February 4th.
- How old will you be: 21
- Age you lost your virginity: 19
- Does age matter: *shrugs* Depends, yo.

LAYER NINE: IN A BOY OR GIRL
- Best eye color: Hazel.
- Best hair color: Like I give a fuq.
- Best thing to do with a partner: Sex, video games, role playing.

LAYER TEN: FINISH THE SENTENCE
- I love: my fiancé
- I feel: really tired at the moment.
- I hide: the porn I draw, I guess?
- I miss: ... my cousin.
- I wish: the government weren't such pricks and would approve my disability claim.

The Walking Dead -- Video Game (Let's Play)

Shiay — Fri, 15 Jun 2012 20:08:49 GMT

I don't think I'm ever going to be consistent with my titles concerning my Let's Play videos.... :U Though, yes... this is talking about The Walking Dead video game that got released by TellTale games within the last couple of months. As I said before, I was really excited about it, and I never really got the chance to play it -- only watch others, or read reviews on it. So... now that I have it, I'm getting started on playing it alongside my Assassin's Creed playthroughs. o:

Here's chapter one, part one: http://youtu.be/oPhaVQPncgI

More Let's Plays.

Shiay — Fri, 15 Jun 2012 17:52:07 GMT

Spent the morning recording videos of gameplay and then going ahead to edit them in Vegas. Process took several hours. I have my second Assassin's Creed Let's Play uploaded now. I started playing The Walking Dead afterward once my Assassin's Creed video was done rendering. That video is also done rendering and is currently uploading to YouTube at the moment. o: I'm really excited to play The Walking Dead. * u * I've been looking forward to it since it came out and I had seen people playing it and I had read reviews on it. Ehehehehe~

Here's the second AC Let's Play: http://youtu.be/VHHz-PYHajQ

I'm thinking another blog will be posted once my first video of The Walking Dead is uploaded. That, or just edit this blog. o:

Assassin's Creed -- Let's Play

Shiay — Thu, 14 Jun 2012 21:58:41 GMT

So... I finally got to record Assassin's Creed and get that going. After two days of frustration and finally being able to edit and produce the damn video, it is finally uploaded to YouTube. I would love it if I could get some feedback on it as well. :3 If anyone is interested, here is the link to the first video, and I will be going on to play more for this series.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OX6G-sVuFto

Trying this again -- hopefully without difficulties this time. oTL

Shiay — Tue, 05 Jun 2012 10:10:43 GMT

So my first test stream was kind of disappointing. Lots of lag and Procaster not wanting to cooperate with me. :C Gonna try streaming again, this time with a different game for now. We'll see how it goes. o:

Test game now is Fallout: New Vegas. Going to start from the very beginning for now and see how it goes.

Link in the right side bar ----->

Doing a test run stream of Assassin's Creed in the next ten to fifteen minutes. <3

Shiay — Tue, 05 Jun 2012 05:32:32 GMT

So yeah, basically, this is a test run stream to see if I can actually do the streams without much of a problem. Procaster is a bit of a nut when it comes to streaming, but hopefully it'll cooperate with me. o: I will not be hosting a Skype call or joining one. I will, however, be answering any and all questions that I receive on my stream through the chat system.

For those of you interested in joining me and watching me play for the next hour to two hours, come swing by my channel. There's a green button to your right that will link you right to it! <3 ----->

Toying with the idea of streaming some walkthroughs....

Shiay — Mon, 04 Jun 2012 11:15:06 GMT

So I've been thinking -- a dangerous thing, I know -- that maybe I should go ahead and do some things that make me happy while I usually spend my days here, home and alone. o: I've got a collection of games that I've wanted to go ahead and stream. The first titles being rather more notable, thanks to its new title being released this Fall, I do believe. I had actually gotten all the Assassin's Creed's games that are out so far (thanks to my wonderful fiance), and I was thinking that after I get them installed and whatnot, that they'd be some of the first things I started streaming on my LiveStream. Mostly in preparation for Assassin's Creed III. I do also have Fallout, Fallout 3, and Fallout: New Vegas -- I'm thinking that I should get the second game some time soon, since GOG.com is selling it for $4.99 as well as Tactics. I mean that since I want to play the games more in order than anything....

I do... also... have Amnesia. Honestly, that is a game I do NOT want to touch at all, ever. However, if assed constantly by people, I may throw my pride out the window that way it doesn't get hurt by screaming like a little bitch while playing that game.

Then there's Psychonauts that I know I would be doing an absolute blind playthrough on -- I mean, aside from the very beginning. I wanted to see how the game played on my computer before actually doing anything with it.... BUT ANYWAYS... if anyone is interested in seeing me stream, here's a list of options for people to choose from to see me play AFTER the Assassin's Creed games. I won't be playing any other game till I'm done with the current AC games:

Alice: Madness Returns
Amnesia: The Dark Descent
Borderlands
Chantelise (okay, I mean, if you really want to see me fucking rage, this game is probably the best way to see that -- I mean, fucking seriously -- fuck this game)
Dead Island
Fallout
Fallout 3
Fallout: New Vegas
Half-Life 2
Half-Life 2: Episode One
Half-Life 2: Episode Two
Half-Life 2: Lost Coast
Garry's Mod (??? Not sure why anyone would want to see me dicking around in this, but sure, I'll put it up anyways)
Greed Corp
Killing Floor
Lara Croft and the Guardian of Light
Left 4 Dead 2
LIMBO
Minecraft
Portal
Portal 2
Psychonauts
Saints Row 2
The Ship
The Sims 3 (+ ALL THE EXPANSIONS)
Sonic Adventure DX
Team Fortress 2
Uru: Complete Chronicles (also another good game to make me rage)
VVVVVV

Dem Summer Daze

Shiay — Mon, 27 Jun 2011 22:04:11 GMT

Hurrah for Summer being here. Hurrah for it pretty much baking Texas... as always.

That aside. Hi again, how are all of you?

As for me? I suppose I'll be trying to stick around and look after some things. Gonna be hard, considering that I do have to find a job, not to mention study for some more tests. Yup, just having a grand ol time over here. C: It's been more fun since my boyfriend's been living here with me and we're both furiously job hunting so that we may save up and move out soon.

Can't wait for that day, actually. That day where my boyfriend and I move out and live out on our own. Then I can attend college without having my family tie me down (as they always do), and not to mention finally actually get out on my own two feet. The only backing that I would have is my boyfriend, though, unlike my family, he actually respects my independence.

I'm Dessssperate. oTL

Shiay — Wed, 09 Mar 2011 19:56:25 GMT

There have been a lot of troubles this year with some things, but this has probably got to be one of the most annoying since if this persists, it means that, eventually, I'll probably be without access to the internet -- much less, my whole computer. Turns out that my video card has been acting up on me for about two days now. Now... I think it's totally understandable seeing as my computer is three and a half years old and definitely in need of new parts seeing as some of them haven't even been switched out since 2007.

Before anyone says that I can just go to sites to update them, hear me out.

My computer, as the title implies, has been shutting down on me thanks to overheating. This really only happens if I'm in games at the moment, though it's been throwing hissy fits when I'm in art programs since just a couple of minutes ago, and it's been really irking me because it does that right before shutting down now. And that means, uh oh--! that I won't be able to get commissions and OCT things finished on time if I have to get them done. It doesn't help that Round Three's deadline for BFOI is almost here and I'm having this trouble. oTL;;

I also have three different doctor's appointments this next week alone, so I don't really want to ask my mother or step father to help with paying for a new graphics card, or at the very least, a laptop cooler that I can sit underneath my laptop and turn on to keep it from overheating. Yeah, they're still paying off my hospital bills, and I feel bad that they still have to;;

Ugh... I don't ever ask for this kind of help from other people, but I do not want to be without my baby for however long it'll take for my parents to get another paycheck in order to get parts for my computer paid off. oTL;; I'm almost useless without my computer in order to do my studying and other things, too. So I would really just like to raise enough money to buy a laptop cooler. oTL Please.

And all my commissions are still at $5 till all ten slots are filled! So if you want to take advantage of that while helping me out, that would be very appreciated!

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+All commissions will be fullbody images in whatever style you want that's on my commissions journal.
+Pokémon Trainer commissions can have up to three Pokémon -- a full six would add an extra $2. So that would make the commission $7. C:
+Any extra characters (human/anthro) in the commission is an extra $2 each.
+All commissions will not have a background and will be saved in .png format to preserve transparency.
+All commissions will have my signature somewhere in the picture (though, not on the image itself).
+Any commissions made will be sketched and shown to you for approval before payment and completion -- in that order.
+There will only be ten slots for this, no more, no less.

1. ~Mars-Frog -- Unova Dream Team (Emboar, Seismitoad, Hydreigon, Beartic, Beheeyem, Galvantula)
2. OPEN!
3. OPEN!
4. OPEN!
5. OPEN!
6. OPEN!
7. OPEN!
8. OPEN!
9. OPEN!
10. OPEN!

Bwaaaah, Valentine's!?

Shiay — Mon, 14 Feb 2011 05:43:34 GMT

Actually... I've been kind of stressing a lot about Valentine's Day. XD;; Which is kind of unusual seeing as I usually take that day to just enjoy myself. LMAO;; Though, I suppose it also has to do with my boyfriend's birthday being about five days after? XD;; oTL;; Or it may have to do with the general fact that my birthday, Valentine's Day and his birthday are all nicely rolled into one month. Convenient, right? XD;;

Though... I'm more in a state of panic now that my gifts are actually done for him. LMAO;; And it's not that I'm concerned about him getting me anything... because I honestly don't care if he does or doesn't. I like to think of that day as just a more... intimate day more than anything else, really. Mean... it's not like you love your significant other any more or less on any other day, right? XD

Anyways...

*shares homemade chocolates* =v=/

Woosh!

Shiay — Wed, 02 Feb 2011 05:45:12 GMT

Hey guys! I'm coming back for just a short time on here so that I could spread this out and hopefully get some people to look at this for someone close to me. That person being my father. He's been doing his deal and getting his photography portfolio (or whatever he has) expanded and he's actually got this image entered in a contest. And the image is actually pretty interesting --a beached Portuguese Man-O-War. Don't close out of that yet if you've clicked it, please. >: All I'm asking for is really, really simple. I mean... if you don't like the picture, that's fine, you don't have to do this... but if you do... it'd be nice if you could actually click the like button for that and help my dad climb the ranks if you could. C: Thanks in advance!!

--

Moreover on just where I've been.... I've actually been trying out different drawing styles and attempting to change it for college courses as well as doing tests and whatnot to prepare me for exams and whatever is coming my way in the future. I've also been busy getting things planned out and attempting to get some of my stuff packed since I'm due to move away in either the Fall or the Winter of this year. C: It's pretty exciting, really. I'll be living near UNT campus with a couple of my friends and getting to attend the university. So I'm all pretty jazzed about that since UNT was my first choice and I'm going to get to go the next available semester. C|

So yay... double majors for art/graphic design and medical technology, here I come. >u<~