The Golden Phoenix

D= you sound like you've got it rough. I can't really do much to help you out, but I do offer you this: pull through, it's obvious you still want to live and you really care for the Writer's Workshop. I'm sure they'll understand, and it was nice of you to apologize. Also, ditch the girl--I don't think any good will come of a relationship like that.

*hugs*

I can't say I know exactly what you're going through, because I really don't. I do know what it feels like to be severely depressed with no around to talk to. Y'know, the feeling that no one cares.

I don't know what happened with the WW, but the staff are very nice people, and I'm sure as hell they'll forgive you.

And if you ever need anyone to talk to, to vent on, to just go crazy with, please please please PM/VM me!! I swear I'll listen! I know what it feels like to be ignored when you need someone to talk to the most. I sincerely offer my ear for you. Please feel free to talk to me, okay? :3

And please feel better soon ^_^

I agree. Diss the girl. Someone better will come along.

I hope you feel better soon. :)

Originally Posted by Every Breaking Wave

If you have a problem with me or anything that I say, then I will kindly thank you to bring it up with me instead of crying about it in a blog.

I'd feel sympathetic, but quite frankly you very often act as if you are a moderator of the Writer's Workshop. I can understand you having ideas for improvement, but not when you make it seem as if you are the only one who ever actually does anything for the Workshop. I'm privileged enough to see the Workshop staff's forum, and I can tell you that they are never short of ideas or discussions. They work their asses off. What you said and the way you said it? Entirely disingenious. Why did nobody defend you? From the people I've spoken to, it's because they agreed with me entirely.



Copied verbatim from your thread; I think it's fairly plain to see that I never once said that you don't want what is best for the Workshop; don't try and fabricate things and make it seem that I did. You keep acting like you are a mod, like you are a staff member, by making these kinds of threads. Every single one makes it seem as if the Workshop staff members can never be bothered to get off their lazy asses and do work on it, and that you are the only person in the forums who cares about it. Guess what, bud; you aren't staff, and they work bloody hard on ideas that you've never even thought of.

Your real-life troubles have nothing to do with the fanfiction community on Bulbagarden. I'm sorry that you have to go through so much shit with your health problems, and it's great that you stay upbeat and immersed in literature despite it. If you have ideas, great, pass it on. But don't try and make it seem as if you are the only one who ever tries to do anything for the Workshop. It is not appreciated by any member of staff when you do, and I speak firsthand from seeing the frustration from numerous people.

FWIW: It's no coincidence that my Guide to Good Writing has been stickied in the Workshop since before you even became a member. I used to be a fairly active member in the fanfiction community, and in my time I was one of the best received on Bulbagarden. That I have not written much lately does not mean that I do not know what goes in the Workshop. And for the record, I have spoken to you in the past. If you can't remember it, it's not my problem.

There's a difference between trying to help other authors and actively usurping the Workshop staff. You need to learn that difference.

Yeah, you are right about everything. I'm sorry.

I'm sorry that I've had to say sorry so much to everyone lately.

Sorry again everyone I might have offended... like I said, just sort of venting.

I guess I'll just leave this place...

Well on my part I am sorry for phrasing it so bluntly. Venting is fine; but if you have a problem over something that someone said, it's a much better idea to discuss it with them personally and privately instead of doing it in a blog. That is why I snapped in my now deleted response. Sometimes it's misread. Sometimes it was written badly. Sometimes it can be interpreted two different ways and the negative way is read. Sometimes it's just been a bad day. That's the thing with the internet; it's hard to tell, and that's why it's best to take it up privately instead of publicly. So for my part I am also sorry, for the way in which I reacted. It was uncalled for.

No you were right. The staff does work incredibly hard and I kind of made it sound like I don't appreciate that fact.

I guess my mini-modding tendencies stem from the fact that no one really talks to you like a friend around here unless you are a mod.

If you aren't one, then you are kind of just a nobody...No VMs saying, "Hey Legacy, how are you doing?" "How's your health?" etc. The only VMs I get are, "Hey can you review my fic?"

It's hard going through sometime like this alone. I guess I place too much importance on this place... maybe should work on getting more 'real friends'

So I guess I just try to start stupid shit threads like that to try to feel important or worth something around here... to try to fit in with the group. It's stupid I know. Childish. Insane.

But don't worry. I won't be around here anymore.

Originally Posted by Legacy

I guess my mini-modding tendencies stem from the fact that no one really talks to you like a friend around here unless you are a mod.

If you aren't one, then you are kind of just a nobody...No VMs saying, "Hey Legacy, how are you doing?" "How's your health?" etc.

Trust me, a lot of mods don't even get that much. I usually get Evil Figment telling me why the Maple Leafs suck, Kayi-chan telling me that she loves me, and Nicoleta trading bad jokes.

At least you get something. Look, I feel bad for everything and I'm not going to compound it by complaining more.

See ya. Sorry again.

Dude, I was trying to cheer you up. Look at it this way; you've been on BMGf less than half the time I have, but you have more than twice as many profile visits. I think that says people are more interested in you than they are in a political mod.

You have to focus on the end goal. You're missing out on things now so that you can save years of your life. Did it suck to miss out on that party? Yeah. Would it suck more to be dead when you're 35? Yup. All this physical therapy is only helping you, so that in the future you can be more healthy. When you finish, make it your goal to run a marathon.

If you ever want someone to complain too, shoot me a message. I'm pretty good at listening to people when they have a problem

I'm not trying to get involved with whatever your clash with TBW was so this message isn't meant to come across as critical of either of you. I didn't even see the thread.

I think it's obvious you care a lot about the Writer's Workshop and trying to improve it etc. Not only that but you also get a lot of flack for not caring about it, ironically enough. I think perhaps sometimes the mods can forget to see it from a non-mods point of view. That is, their work is behind the scenes, so we don't know what's going on so when we have ideas the easiest way to contribute it usually to start a thread or something. I'm sure starting threads can often be troublesome for them or even feel a little undermining but I know you always have the best interests of the Workshop at heart.

Anyway, I really hope you decide not to leave BMGf but, more importantly, that things get better for you in general. I'm really sorry to hear about everything that's been going on with you.

Um, I don't really know you well, but you seem like a nice guy and I understand where you're coming from.

Just try to keep in mind that what you're missing out on will help you in the long run. It would suck a lot more not being able to live a healthy life later on. Though yes, it can make one miserable. Just never give up and don't lose hope.

I'm sorry to hear what you're going through. If you ever feel the need to talk to someone about what's on your mind and find yourself having no one to vent to at the moment, feel free to contact me. I'm here every day, and I'm always more than happy to hear someone out. Like I said, I don't know you that well, but I'm still there if you ever need to vent or simply have a conversation with someone.

I sincerely hope things look up for you soon.

Hey, man, I just wanna say I'm real sorry you have to put up with this. It's not fair that you of all people have to become an example of what the world's fallen into. The people who're nice to everyone and have good intentions often get nothing for their troubles but more problems to deal with.

I hope things improve for you as soon as possible. We'll say a few prayers for you in my religion class, because this is not how the world is supposed to be. It's just not.

I know this likely won't make you feel better, but it definitely calms me down: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZSBAODm2hkg&feature=feedf

I think Gastly's Mama really hit the nail on the head here.

But as for nobody reading... I think that, if that were true, there wouldn't be a thriving publishing industry. It's true that very few authors ever get to the same level of fame as movie and TV stars, but the fame's not really the point, is it?

For me, at least, it's about the spread of ideas and ideals, and the thought that, maybe, I might have an influence on the right person or people to help prod our race in the right direction, regardless of whether or not I get any of the credit. The fact that I might help out, in any way, is the biggest thing that keeps me writing.

Legacy, about the heart stuff...

As much as all the therapy sucks, it'll literally save your life. My dad had a quadruple bipass after not smoking for twenty years. He underwent a ton of therapy and after his heart surgery was in the best shape of his life (he's a lard-ass now, but whatever).

It'll get better, but a massive proceudre like heart surgery takes a loooooooong time to heal.

Then you can kick ass at soccer again.