Return of Tyraneon

This band lyrics describe me in so many ways(and fuck my regular format)
In the End(probably the biggest right now)

I kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart
What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter

and

In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I'm surprised it got so (far)
Things aren't the way they were before
You wouldn't even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me
In the end
You kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart
What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when I tried so hard

Faint
I am a little bit insecure, a little unconfident
'Cause you don't understand I do what I can but sometimes I don't make sense
I am what you never wanna say but I've never had a doubt
It's like no matter what I do I can't convice you for once just to hear me out
So I let go watching you
Turn your back like you always do
Face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be here 'cause you're all that I got (got)

Valentines Day
My insides are turned to ash so slow
And blew away as I collapsed so cold
A black wind took them away from sight
And held the darkness over day that night
And the clouds above move closer looking so disatisfied
but the heartless wind kept blowing, blowing

I used to be my own protection but not now
Cuz my path has lost direction somehow
A black wind took you away from sight
And held the darkness over day that night
And the clouds above move closer looking so disatisfied
And the ground below grew colder as they put you down inside
but the heartless wind kept blowing, blowing

So now you're gone and I was wrong
I never knew what it was like to be alone

Given Up (what im contemplating)
I've given up
I'm sick of feeling
Is there nothing you can say

Take this all away
I'm suffocating
Tell me what the fuck is wrong
With me

And Shadow of the Day (this could be the biggest reason, I hope not)
Sometimes beginnings aren't so simple
Sometimes good bye's the only way