adiosToreador

Another year

, 1st January 2013 at 10:07 PM (370 Views)

Well, it's 2013 now. A time to look ahead to what the future holds, but also a time to look back and reflect upon the events of the past. I had to make a lot of decisions about a lot of things this past year, but I still feel like there are a lot of things in my life that are no clearer now than they were when they first came up.

There were good things that happened; I graduated college, have two B.A. degrees, and got to visit @Ryuutakeshi; not once, but twice. We got to spend Christmas together, go see both The Hobbit and Les Miserables, and I successfully wielded the power of baked goods to bribe his family into liking me. But there were also a lot of negatives. I finally came back to The War Room after the drama regarding October of 2011, but I didn't exactly find things the way I'd left them, and while I stuck it out through the initial backlash, now I feel like I can't say or do anything in there without every single person there getting extremely angry with me. My computer wouldn't connect to my home's internet for about four or five months. My fic, Heart of Crystal, went on hiatus during that time, and now I'm having problems coming back to it. I've barely gotten any other writing done. I got a job for a magazine that's just starting up and doesn't have all its legal kinks worked out yet and where my boss straight-up told me he didn't want to guarantee people a fixed minimum amount for their salary (and instead wanted to pay people an amount based on a percentage of the magazine's profits, no matter how high or low that amount would be), so I'll be quitting next week even though I've been working for him since August and received absolutely no compensation and won't get any before I'm gone. I'm starting to wonder if anyone here is actually going to read this, let alone if they would notice or care if I left the forums altogether.

I've done a lot of reflecting about my place in the way of things and whether or not I belong, and I still don't have much in the way of answers. But I haven't been going anywhere with anything anytime soon, and that's probably something that's going to continue for at least a little while longer. So for now, I hope you all had a merry holiday, a happy New Year, and a joyful Bak'tun. Welcome to 2013.

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Updated 1st January 2013 at 10:18 PM by adiosToreador

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Contrary - 1st January 2013 10:13 PM
@Ryuutakeshi;
Shiny Celebi - 1st January 2013 10:14 PM
The part about the War Room, Ive had similar experiences. I really just cant play right, and I found that out the hard way,and I really cant open my mouth without making myself seem scummy and half the time dont use my role right and have no real strategy( and when I did it didnt work like I thought). I had a hard time in the games for a long while. I still lurk there a little bit, but I'll probably never get back into it :l I felt it was just time to step out.

Sorry about your job, that sucks :l Good luck in what you do this year.
Octy - 1st January 2013 10:23 PM
That's how I feel about the War Room. It feels like it's becoming more and more hostile to people as of lately, and all the older players aren't really there anymore. Well, the veteran players like you, Ryuu, and Rayne. Like, after this one I'm in, I probably won't play again for a long while.

I'm also sorry to hear about your job. I do hope you can find a better one soon.

I do hope you and Ryuu have a wonderful 2013, and I hope we get a chance to talk soon. :)
Aura-kun - 1st January 2013 11:22 PM
Awwww...people care that you've been gone, don't be like that.
Neon Borealis - 2nd January 2013 12:44 AM
Hey, I would care if you left.

And as for the war room, well, maybe I wasn't in there from the beggining, but I can certainly feel some anger to new people. I will try to make myself more open and friendly to new people from now on, but I can't speak for the others. Still, I'll do what I can in order to make the war room a better place.
Stahl - 2nd January 2013 12:44 AM
I'm still very sorry about the whole YGOTAS mafia thing, Feli... I hope things get better for you. It's a new year, so things can only improve. :)

I did notice that you left for a while, by the way, and I know exactly how it feels to not fit in the War Room, but I stay anyway.
Spectrum Achromatic - 2nd January 2013 12:57 AM
The War Room does feel like a battlefield from time to time, and I sometimes find myself getting heated up over trivial situations - momentarily forgetting that place was created to have fun. I feel a little guilty when I recall what I've done.

Hope you have a better year - and best wishes in 2013.
Druddigon - 2nd January 2013 02:00 AM
Heart of Crystal still alive?
Phoenicks - 2nd January 2013 02:13 AM
I miss you in War Room, Feli. Hope you're having more-than-agreeable Holidays. :3
Paperhorse - 2nd January 2013 07:05 PM
You're always welcome in the War Room and I'm sorry if you feel otherwise. You're a good player and we like having you around. Good luck with everything in 2013!