I met someone, who apparently has 3 partners
by, 20th January 2014 at 07:32 AM (609 Views)
Okay, so from a writer's group I met this transsexual woman once or twice, and I saw her posting on facebook, saying she had three active partners, and apparently another solid chance for a fourth..
And all I could think of, this trans woman has three partners (Unsure if they are all women), and I can't even get one bloody damn date, what the hell is wrong with me? Is there something so horrible about me, that I am 26 in June, and never had a relationship, never even had a date, the closest I have ever gotten was hugs, and those are the friend zone hugs. I just don't understand how this is possible, yeah I don't really care for having more then one partner (And I don't have an interest in dating a trans, nothing personal I am just not sure if I could), and I don't think I could date anyone in a poly relationship, it's fun to fantasize about, but I don't think I could do it. Not it matters since I don't even have a option in being in a relationship, at all.
No wonder I am so bitter though, seriously every person's who gotten married, every person who's engaged, or starting a new relationship, I just feel like going who cares, or why on earth is someone who's a jerk dating someone. Even those who broke up with their partners, I just can't give a will to care, especially if they say I will never find anyone, I will be alone. Those are the worst, they don't and won't ever truly know the bitterness of being alone, the soul crushing moment as each day goes by, thinking you will be alone for the rest of your life. Of course you keep going on with your daily life, trying to keep those thoughts contained deep in your mind, but there's that one moment, when a situation like anything mentioned in the blog, I just want to scream Are you kidding me! (I can't even watch a TV show without saying shut the hell up, to the likes of either Rachel Greene or Ted Mosby, who complain about being alone despite being with a hundred partners, and being really attractive).
I don't know, it just annoying. Again, will note I am not against transsexuals or muti relationships, it's just ridiculous I can't even find one girl who will go out with me, while so many others could find many people as they want. (And they aren't even that attractive themselves). Really makes me question what is wrong with me.
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